[DarkForbidden-Love]

Dark continued to lavish attention on Axexander's ear before moving down to his neck. Maybe this is what Alexander had meant? Dark did not know and assumed Alexander's silence ot be a good thing for now.

[littl3chocobo]

he did not understand he was happy so happy but there was something wrong with him, like he had a puzzle piece to an all black puzzle, he could not see what it was or where it went but the shape of it was familiar and so he looked for a place to put it. he felt his legs grow weak as the breath of the other ghosted along the side of his neck. he panted lightly as the other pulled him closer, hands in his hair tugging slightly. he obligingly leaned forward to give the other better access and was rewarded with a soft mouth. he reflexively pulled the other closer and moaned his pleasure. the other responded by pushing their hips together and grinding slightly. he whined. there it was again, that nagging feeling of something wrong. the other mistook his response and repeated the action. he could feel something different. he could not bear i any longer and pushed the other down into the pool. he followed after landing on his knees, the water came hip high to him now, nearly to the other's shoulders. he put his a hand on the other boy's side and put the other over his stomach he looked him in the eye, worry and confusion on his face. he leaned towards the other 'what am i missing? what is wrong?" the other looked pained. but he was blushing too. he whispered 'do you know it? you must' 'alexander....' the other all but moaned 'your.. hand.. stop' he jerked away lifting his hand from his lord's stomach he looked away ashamed. he had his answer

[DarkForbidden-Love]

When Alexander made the remark about needing a woman Dark felt ashamed. He had not meant to get carried away. Dark was a monster, just like his dream. "Sorry," Dark said for the first time in his life ashamed of his own biology. "This wasn't supposed to happen." Dark said to himself wishing he could fulfil Alexander's wish but not knowing how. It was his fault he had let himself go to far and because of this gave himself an erection that caused Alexander to be unhappy with being unable to fulfill Dark's wants. 'Stupid body and limbo' he thought angry wanting to reassure Alexander but not knowing how.

[littl3chocobo]

he looked up sadly from the other tears still streaming from his eyes "why? you have done nothing wrong. it is natural, the book said so" he gave a halfhearted watery smile before a pinched look took it's place. 'dark?' he asked softy wading his hands through the water and stretching until he was nose to nose with the other, he ignored his failure even as he leaned against it "dark..." his face softened "i love you. i will fix myself for you" he thought to kiss the other then but turned instead. he knew now he should not, dark was his one and only but he could not be dark's, not like this

[DarkForbidden-Love]

"Don't try to 'fix' yourself," Dark said feverently, "Not for my sake, I'm not worth it." Dark wrapped his arms around Alexander, "A monster should not spoil and angel's beauty." THis was bad Alexander should not want to change, bot for Dark's sake. "Love you how you are, don't want you to change," Dark was babling incoherently now trying to convince Alexander not to change.

[littl3chocobo]

he was confused and an ache had begun to develop in his throat making it hard to breathe, he couldn't do this, to follow his lord's command would to be going against his very nature. he was made specifically to love his lord he served no other purpose, he could no more turn his love on himself as he could turn it onto the rocks around them. he had no understanding of the situation at hand, he could not fathom being able to follow the commands issued, inside himself he could feel something shift in him as if his insides were separating and the first part had come dislodged. he leaned into one of the cold arms around his neck and closed his eyes "my very existence is for your pleasure alone. why are you asking me to turn from you, without you i am nothing, if i do not change i will lose you." his tears grew more abundant and slipped through his closed eyes sliding down the other's arm "i..wish, i was changed into what my lord wanted most. i wish he could love me. i wish i could make him happy. i wi-" his eyes opened and a pained look overtook his face a small tink could be heard from the crystal around his neck. both eyes turned towards the sound. a small crack now split the previously unblemished surface.

[DarkForbidden-Love]

"Alexander," Dark said softly, "Stop wishing for something that has already happened, you're breaking you crystal." Dark actually what the crystal did he just assumed it was important. "I can love you in this form and I do love you the way you are right now." That was true he did not need a /female/ to be happy, he just needed Alexander.

[littl3chocobo]

his tears stopped. "but i cannot fix you, the book said so" his hands clenched involuntarily in the sand shifting them both a little lower.

[DarkForbidden-Love]

"I don't think anything is broken about me." Dark said slightly confused about the wording of his question before reaching a conclusion that may or may not be wrong. "I have always preferred the male gender over the female one, I believe it is called homosexual?"

[littl3chocobo]

he rolled the word in his mouth before trying it out 'homosexual' he tried to understand what the other was saying and how this new word made it work. 'dark is a homosexual so it will fix itself and he does not use a female..' he trailed off he think he understood what he was being told but he could not get his mind around how it could work. tentivly he tried to form the question "..and he an use me?"

[DarkForbidden-Love]

Dark frowned at the way that was worded but could not find a better way to word it. "Yes, but I've never done it before." Dark suddenly looked very skitish and afraid. "With anyone."

[littl3chocobo]

"then how do you know?" dark had no magic and no book, he did not understand how the other could know without one or both

[DarkForbidden-Love]

"I know because it is something you get taught at school," And they preach how when you die you won't get rest because you'll be eternally damned but Alexander does not need to know that. "They devote a whole class perios to it in fifth and sixth grade."

[littl3chocobo]

'oh' he said momentarily at a loss for words "your master must have been a worldly man." for the first time he realized their positions. 'oh' he said again and pushed back into a sitting position. dark still had his arms around alexander's neck and so was pulled up as well. alexander put his arms around the dripping other "you are cold"

[DarkForbidden-Love]

Dark smiled at Alexander's obvious declaration, "Slightly, but once I dry out I'll be fine." And the quickest way to dry off was get out of the water and Dark did not currently want to move.

[littl3chocobo]

" that is true, though i don't want to move either" he said not realizing the last part of the comment was not spoken aloud