[littl3chocobo]

dear diary


whenever i read a new entry i always have the paranoid feeling whomever is talking about me. it stresses me out greatly how popular the thread has been these last two days

someone who stresses easily

[Kaguya]

Dear >enter whatever here<,

Thank you for sucking out my muse and beating him into a lovely bloody pulp on the floor... it seemed to have died and I have to force myself to do anything creative. I do hope you are happy with yourself.

Signed,
An empty shell.

[Asami]

Dear diary,

Honestly I don't care about 9/11. Its not like I can really super remember it. Hes its a tragedy but seriously. Its been a long time. :/ is it so wrong to not care? Does that make me unamerican? If so fuck being an American. If being sad about something that happened on the day it happened (not every single day) means being an American then that's just stupid to me. :/
-asami

[Ginger]

Dear diary,

In relation to what Asami has said, only 3,000 people died that day. I know I sound careless when it comes to the number 3,000, but that would only be 1,000 more students attending my old high school and I am sure there are high schools with over 3,000 students. Those 19 hijackers could have chosen to take over more planes, and crash into even more buildings surrounding the twin towers, but you know what? They didn't, and THAT is something we need to remember and be thankful for, along with those who survived in the surrounding buildings. Not just remember the lives that were lost. It was a tragic day but considering how easy it was for those terrorists to do what they did, the death count could have been doubled, tripled, and even gone into the tens of thousands. I'm thankful that was the number, I really I am. That doesn't make me happy people lost their lives, it just makes me grateful the number wasn't more.

Miranda.

[Meizicht]

Dear you,

I'm so sorry for how I am. I'm going by the seat of my pants, without a clue as to how to do things, and I've been an abusive piece of crap to you. For a few days, I've been trying to fix it; I've been trying so hard to turn myself around for you, but yet.. I continue making you feel bad even when I don't mean to. I frantically try to explain everything I say so you don't feel bad for anything that I do, and yet.. I've wrecked everything again. Just by doing that. How do I fix this? Is this just not fixable? Am I just so bad that even when I'm trying to do the opposite of what I've been doing, that it's just who I am? Like I am the abuse? It seems like.. no matter what, nothing is better. I make you feel bad just by talking, it seems. What do I do? I'm trying so hard. Maybe it's not enough.. What kind of person would you want me to be? I'll change everything about myself to make you happy. And even though it's been really hard for me, I can try my hardest to be only what you want. I'll be here when you want me to. I'll go away when you want me to. I'll wait patiently without a word every time you go to do something else, etc. I can't complain about a single thing because I've been the one mistreating you all this time.

I don't know what to do. I'm lost, and I don't know where to get advice. How do I stop messing this up? How can I make you happy?

Maybe I'm just that bad... I don't know what to do..

Sincerely, your abusive, undeserving boyfriend.

[BakedGewds]

Dear mom,

I'm fat. I'm a fatty fat fat. No really, I know I'm fat and not the prettiest, you really don't have to tell me... again. Like, what is it now, your job? Is it your job to remind me every day how fat and boring I am? I hope you get great healthcare or something because that job sucks.

Besides you letting me know how fat I am, I do appreciate it when you borrow all my money then use the "You live here for $50 a month! You can afford to let me borrow a few bucks!" excuse. No really, please keep using that excuse for the reason why you don't need to repay the $90 you borrowed.

I love you mommy.

[Ginger]

Dear mom,

Get a damn toilet plunger before our rental trailer becomes the next great flood. Deli food comes second. I'm sick of you putting things off to the point of no return.

Your daughter.

[Pinkie]

Dear man child,

I dont know why you see me as your mother. I should be some one you want to hold dear and love I shouldnt be the one to clean up after you and cook your every meal. Last time I checked you had two legs and a heart beat and could do these things yourself. Though it would seem to me that even with your age you act like a child. I love you but some things need to change if you want to keep me. I dont mind looking after my babe but when that babe becomes a baby and expects everything on a golden platter...we have issues. I love you...but grow up please!!!

Love your pissed off girlfriend.

[Asami]

Dear self,

Maybe you are what they keep calling you. You're worthless. So worthless. Everytime you get some happiness someone beats you down again. You just need to realize you can never be happy. Just accept that and you'll be okay.

Love yourself

[Ultima]

Dear no one in particular,

I think I'm starting to get over him. It scares me, but it feels kinda liberating. And it only took, oh, a year or so. ... But at the same time, whenever his boifriend is mentioned or I see them together, my heart sinks. I want to be with him, but at the same time I know I should try out other people. Am I ready for someone else? Is there anyone who would actually want me?
This would all be so much easier if I was straight and wasn't genderqueer and was skinny and was attractive to other people. Then I could find someone else in 20 minutes if I wanted to. (I will never know how the hell he found someone so fricking fast). But even in the PRIDE club at school everyone is either not attracted to my gender/sex, taken, a gender/sex I'm not attracted to, or any combination of those three.
I hope I find someone. Maybe it will be him again. Maybe it will be a shy genderqueer like me. I hope whoever it is I'm with next just ... loves me, damn it. No drama. No "but maybe I don't idk let's break up wait nvm let's get back together wait nvm wait..." No cheating (even though I still forgive him completely). No getting angry at me when I don't text back. And absolutely no questioning my gender identity/expression or sexuality. Even for a second.

Whoops. I rambled. I wasn't even supposed to be posting anything because I have schoolwork to be doing.

Whatever.

Much love,
Myself.

[Belial]

Dear Diary

I went around the park four times on my bike, and I was so winded at the end.

I need to get back in shape if THAT gets me winded.

And my thighs feel weak like jello when I walk now.

[Ginger]

Dear self,

Go to nursing school to become an RN. As soon as you find a job, save as much money as you can while still living at home. Don't worry about your driver's license because you will probably be within reasonable walking/biking distance to and from work. Hard times are coming and you need to be prepared.

Self.

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[Kaguya]

Dear >enter whatever here<,

Recently I don't know what's been going on, I've been accused of being a bad influence and placing an idea into my soon to be little brother in laws head. Sure I said once I was bi-sexual but fucking hell that doesn't mean I put the damn idea in his head! Look at the shit he watches on TV? Why am I the fucking scape goat?! It is because he is feeling neglected because of everything that is going on with your daughter.

Just because I don't act like I have emotions doesn't mean they are there, and with how you came so forward and aggressive with it I could nothing but be pissed off for twenty minutes followed by nothing but tears for an hour. It was so damn emotional, I get where you are coming from as a father, but he is a teenager he is going to be more aware of things especially watching programs on television and online that have gay and bi sexual scenes or characters.

I love you to bits Jay you are the closest thing I've had to a father since the falling out that I with my belated father, however, how you came at me with it was so wrong. You think it's wrong what your son said... stop him watching television, take away the net and spend some fucking time with him!

A person refusing to be a scape goat or change for the wants of another.

[Espy]

Dear self,

....HOLY SHIT, CAN YOU STOP PROCRASTINATING FOR ONE MOMENT AND NOT GO TO SLEEP PAST TWO EVERY NIGHT?!

Er...thanks in advance, I guess...
-energy-less Espy

[Echo-chan713]

Dear ndk,

Please let me have my fun for the weekend, and I hope my cosplay will look nice for some picture don't mess me up...as well as hoping that my giant ass slingshot with pass their strict codes since its made out of PVC, duct tape, and ace bandages. And I'm a little worried about my Alice knife since its made out of plastic and I added a metallic color so I hope their not stupid enough to prevent me from using it as a people for my Alice madness returns.

So for now I thought my foot surgery would be painful but to wasn't since I sat there watching south park on my iPad Netflix while they a pulling a piece of my toenail off. I was actually comfortable...yea so that's it

From your patient and a passing fan, echo :)