[Lauv Keiko]

I should someday try it out. But I bet they don't sell it here.

[Meizicht]

I think I'm going to be here more often. Some serious things have happened with Kai, so I need to distract myself or I'll worry my ulcers back. Dx
So..
+hopes he doesn't kill the thread+

[Lauv Keiko]

IT LIVES. MEIZ LIVES.
please allow my intrusion. *hugs mei mei*

[littl3chocobo]

oh, hi dude, welcome back even if it is on sour terms

[Meizicht]

^^; Hey.
Sour terms? xD;
Well if you mean the situation Kai's in, it's actually probably a good thing that's just starting out as a bad thing.. it's hard to explain without actually explaining it.
If that makes sense.
I'm just bad at overworrying and overthinking, so I stress myself into temporary blindness. I have to bury myself in distractions so I don't do that. OTL;
GW2 has really helped me with that lol

[Lauv Keiko]

The meiz ignored the lauv-hugs!
*attaches self to choc now*

[Meizicht]

I didn't. Dx
I said "Hey"
I'm awkward with hugs, you know this.

Edit: Shit, I was going to let some of this out in the diary thread but it's closed. Kind of relied on that thread to help me out in certain times. OTL;

[Lauv Keiko]

wait, what? the diary closed?

[littl3chocobo]

yeah i just saw ;___; and there are times when that thread has kept me from doing banworthy rants in places i should not

[Lauv Keiko]

Man, I love that thread a lot. .. ;3;

[Meizicht]

Yeah, I just saw the post. And it's locked. Dunno why though ( I'm not a mod, so. lol )
Unfortunately, recently it's been the only place where I can let off some of the stuff I've been on about. So I'm a bit irked. Was kind of my haven and helped me calm down a lot and now I can't at the worst time possible. OTL
I feel like a shitty person because this situation has nothing to do with me, other than the fact that I'm worried and it involves Kai. Like I'm being too selfish by needing to vent.

It's kept me from doing very stupid things, and I can filter it all out without pushing my friends away with my rants like I used to ( sometimes I still do, but it's not as much as I used to. )
With it not there, I'm not sure where else to put it. I can't really bottle it up lol. x__x;

[littl3chocobo]

dude you can pm me when you need a rant, honestly i feel your pain though i have never blinded myself, gave myself cramps along my torso but never blinded

[Meizicht]

Thanks; anymore I like to rant in places like the diary thread so I'm not unloading it on individual people. Whenever I did that, it turned people away from me and +developed abandonment issues somewhat+ xD;
So I try not to seek people out individually to talk to about stuff.
And the blinding stuff; I had ocular migraines from stress last year because of things similar to this situation happening right now ( though that one actually did have a lot to do with me. ) so I'd get temporary blind spots. @__@;

[littl3chocobo]

i could have a confessional take on it, no replies no judgement, besides unless it was about me personally what would i have to be upset about?


wow.... i just seize up, not nearly as scary

[Meizicht]

Well, the problem is I have a lot to rant about; usually stuff that could be dimmed by problems other people have ( the stuff I have normally are brought upon by myself, and aren't really important. )
It's my own issue keeping me from taking up offers of people who want to listen; if I manage to work it out where I can again, I probably will. xD
I'm pretty sure either the thread will reopen or another will be made though. A lot of people seemed to rely on it.

[littl3chocobo]

well... what about a trade, if i share would it make it feel equal?

i dunno this is the second time there has been issues with that thread