[Sadrain]

I would get sick looking at all the blood, probably start to do something to stop it. >< And just cutting for not finishing it isn't what I would do. I have enough pain in my every day life to cause my self more. Also one of the reasons why I didn't finish it all before I found people to talk it out with. I couldn't find relatively safe and unpainful path. I suppose I am a coward of sorts? But what would be worse is if I survived and was left as total cripple on my mom's shoulders... ._.

Wow, really, Seth? O:

[Damies]

Discussing depressing stuff, how depressing.

Hello thread I am on my XL cuz mom is watching stuff on netflix on the computer. I am feeling mildly sick to my stomach :C

[Logan]

fufufu, finally ordered some delish food from pizza hut, whoot~

*waits for it delivery to here in rain* <3

[Sadrain]

Well, life is not all sunshine and bunnies. >o>

[Yuki]

I just don't get it...I don't understand what they are trying to do.

[Flaria]

Rainy, you are only 16 and you still have long way to go to get the future the way you wanted it and of course we all had to go through difficult times and some of us may have it worse than others. Like for my boyfriend for example. He always claimed that he have it worse than anyone on this planet. So many negative things going on his side and no one ever bother to listen to him because to so many pointless reason. A lot of people tried to tell him it's not the end of the world and so forth. I am the one that dealt with him for years now and he is changing for better. If it wasn't for me, he would be dead by now.

[Damies]

But I like sunshine anb bunnies! D8

-hugs an angora rabbit-

[johnny]

I don't know what my grandparents died of. They were all in their 70s, though. Except my paternal grandfather, who I think was closer to 60. But he was wounded in World War II and was never at top health afterward.

My great aunt and uncle are both in their 80s, though. They're the closest I have to grandparents, since all of mine died before I turned twelve.

And I've never told any of my friends or family that I used to think about killing myself, mostly because I knew I probably would never do it. Lmfao, it's mostly my selfishness and self-centeredness keeping me going whenever I have those thoughts, because I constantly think about how people would react, and I wouldn't be there to know for sure. Besides, I've kind of grown used to my general state of depression and self-loathing. It's working as kind of a buffer now. No matter what other people have to say to me, they probably can't do worse than what I have to say about myself.

[Flaria]

Originally Posted by DarkMoonSlayer

But I like sunshine anb bunnies! D8

-hugs an angora rabbit-

I used to own a Jersey Wooly rabbit, doe, named Spirit. She is one special bunny that I ever come across for show rabbits. She won two times in a row and won best of variety. She would let others to trimmed her nails, being groomed but when it's comes to me she only wanted my loving attention and nothing more. If you stayed with her for 2 hours she will rewarded you with her kisses.

[Sadrain]

I don't say I have had it worse than others, I think no one, as long as you don't live somewhere where war rages, can have it worse than whole world. My problems... I was kid back then, I took some things too seriously, was too meek, but it was still hard for me. I know I have lot ahead in my life, it's just that sometimes it just feels like there will be nothing good, that I am just useless like that. I have kind of gotten out of that state, but there is situations that triggers it all up again. -sighs-

[Logan]

Whooooo 15 mins left until my pizza stuff is here~

[Sadrain]

I have to go now. Bye bye all.

[Flaria]

Originally Posted by Sadrain

I don't say I have had it worse than others, I think no one, as long as you don't live somewhere where war rages, can have it worse than whole world. My problems... I was kid back then, I took some things too seriously, was too meek, but it was still hard for me. I know I have lot ahead in my life, it's just that sometimes it just feels like there will be nothing good, that I am just useless like that. I have kind of gotten out of that state, but there is situations that triggers it all up again. -sighs-

I know, you didn't say that in your post but I'm saying what people normally say in their own words when it's come down to it. Just like how my boyfriend is. He is very complicated person, himself. He is not that easy to please and now that I am easy to please him. Lol. *hugs* People always called me "Mom" Or "Mommy". Since, I tend to act like one. @_@;

[Yuki]

I care about people if it's the right thing to do. I wont care if people just rant about being forced to do the dishes and stuff at home. haha

[Seth]

Originally Posted by Sadrain

I would get sick looking at all the blood, probably start to do something to stop it. >< And just cutting for not finishing it isn't what I would do. I have enough pain in my every day life to cause my self more. Also one of the reasons why I didn't finish it all before I found people to talk it out with. I couldn't find relatively safe and unpainful path. I suppose I am a coward of sorts? But what would be worse is if I survived and was left as total cripple on my mom's shoulders... ._.

Wow, really, Seth? O:

Cowardice and promising my mom is why I stopped hurting myself, after how it affected her when my grandma tried, I totally gave up on it.
Also.. Yes I have over 10k gold on menewsha, and a whoole ton of items, I had 2 completed 2k7 easter event items, and almost a full third set. the chicky on my head alone is worth like 20k there.
Nobody had the money so it was mostly partial trades :P

[Sei]

*rolls through a field of bunnies and sunshine*