[Ultima]

See I think that's also sweet. You're so scared of losing him. I used to sometimes feel like that with my ex. That it was all a wonderful dream that I was scared of waking up and losing him. ... But then I did lose him v.v;

And again, I have the opposite problem kinda. My dreams (idk whether I would consider them good or bad) are always about him, usually us getting back together. Then I wake up and realize that it was just a dream and I usually end up crying v.v; ...

[Lost]

Thats how my dreams were. when we first broke up for about the first 6months afterward. Those dreams happened every time I closed my eyes to sleep...
I was sooo happy for my insomnia
v.v;;

then the dreams faded... they were not completely gone... but didn't happen every night.

Then... three weeks before we got back together he was there again. in my dreams. We always ended up together. no matter what happened. in the end we were together.... and then we were.
So I freak out when I wake up and he's not here. but him working the night shift doesn't help that much.
I worry that it all is a dream... which is fully possible. my mind is a scary place.
I hope its not. but if it is I wish to be asleep forever.

//then again if its a dream I'm sure things would be a little different.
xD

[Ultima]

Yes, I'm sure if it was all a dream, then I would not be concsiously writing these messages to you from somewhere far away. And you would probably have something better to be doing (such as flying, etc) than sitting, typing to some person on the computer, who is typing back. Unless I too am just a part of your dream. In which case, I damn you for making my life suck-ish D<

[Lost]

Ya ever notice that in dreams everythings prefect. You don't worry about the little things. It all just comes together.
My life doesn't have that now... so maybe it really isn't a dream ya kno?
xDD

Thats how I talk myself outta thinking its a dream. cause its hard to tell the difference some days;


Ultima-kun
this one didn't mean to make your life suck!
This one doesn't even kno whhy your life sucks
x.x;;

I would have to be crazy or a genius to make up all the people on i interact with on a daily bases.
and why would i make my boss such a damn ass...
or my co worker be selfcentered and bitchy?
thats just dumb of me.
and I should've given you the prefect life...
but then why would you come online at all?
x.x;;

maybe its all part of the major plan!

[Ultima]

Nuu, if my life was better I would still be on here =P But yes, you would have to have made up everyone you know, everyone you've ever interacted with, everyone and everything you've ever even seen, online, irl, on tv, everything. That would be one sick imagination. XD

But if this is just all your dream, a better life would be great ^^ Let's start with fewer phobias/anxieties, shall we? ^^;;;

[Lost]

must post more....

Could be done. Ya never know...
I could be like crazy...
with multiple personalities
each having their own multiple persons... etc etc etc until I could have enough to make up this sick little world I'm in.

but eh... highly unlikely.

....must get next milestone

[Lost]

I believe I just sent trade for the last item
^.^

[Ultima]

Yes, very highly unlikely ^^ And if you were dreaming, when did you start dreaming? How did life and dream so perfectly and seamlessly go from one to the other? How is this dream lasting so long? How are you having dreams within this dream? How could you have made up every event, every person's actions, words, and desicions (even when you're not around them), every tv episode or movie you've seen since the dream started? How are you even aware of the fact that it could be a dream? If this was a dream, you also would not feel pain, you probably would never get hungry or have to go to the bathroom either.

Once you think about it, it seems very highly unlikely that this is all your dream ^^; Haha, I'm sorry. This is just how I think. Very logically XD

Edit: Trade accepted. And holy shiznit I just noticed I have over 100k au. XD

[Lost]

True True;
but some times I'm not as logical as others.
i know its not. but sometimes I worry that it could be and that my happiness is just a lie
^.^;

/envy envy envy/
I wish I had that much...


This one thinks she is going to sleep now
-again-
very tired.
hoping I won't wake up again without him here.

[Ultima]

Yeah, my sisters are also so jealous XD Star Seeker just said to me before she went to bed "if you hit 100k, I will say you officially have no life" ... so apparently I have no life XD

[Lost]

nyaaaa
Ultima-kun has no life?
meaning Ultima-kun is dead?
*cries*
but but but
your posting still...
so.....


...........your.........

A ZOMBIE!?

[Ultima]

Definately XDD But Ultima is sexy zombie, yes? XD

[Lost]

oh by the gods yes.
the sexiest EVER!
/theme song should be "I'm to sexy for my shirt" or "Bringing Sexy Back"/

[Ultima]

Hahaha XDD Well, I'm glad you think so XD

Well, I think I should be off to bed now-ish ^^;
Goodnight Lost~! I hope you have sweet dreams tonight ^^

[Lost]

*glomps*
This one does!
=P

A persons beauty is on the inside. I don't need a picture to see the real you~
You are a wonderful, beautiful, caring, smexy person~
teehee

you'll learn this one day.
you may say your shy, but Ultima-kun your opening up more then you know~
One day you'll see what I see and your life is wonderful in its own way, and that all your experiences just made you into the person you are.

This one should get sleep tho. If I can't fall asleep I'll be back
xDD

[Ultima]

Wow, that means a lot to me Lost ^^ Thank you so much, that was very deep and meaningful. I'm glad you think this way too, about your true self not being what you look like, but who you are and what you are like. Like I find you to be adorable. Even if someone were to see a photo of you and not think that you are adorable, they don't know you. I know that you are a sweet, (somewhat silly =P), adorable person without needing to see your face ^^

But now I must go to bed as I am talking too much. ... This happens when I am tired ... x.x;