[Crystallyn Whisper]

What is that derpy little grey thing? Poor little guy looks like he's seen some shit.

[Den]

The bird? I dunno... and yes, Tam, must watch out for Loup Garou! :D

[Lawtan]

WE HAVE A LIBRARY GHOST!!! :D

*Hugs Crystallyn*
*Also hugs Autobot and Tam*

[jaguarlyra]

*Uses religious book to get the ghost to go away* so, how is everyone?

[Lawtan]

:( I like ghosties... (Crystallyn is a Trisphee "Ghost"...as is Sadrain...don't know if there are others...)

I was very depressed yesterday...as in momentary dip into my past morbidity.
But...
In a World of Stone...

[jaguarlyra]

Opps sorry ghost. Depressed as in sad or depressed as in depression? If the later, do you need any help or someone to talk to, if so just ask and I'll try.

[Tam I am]

Yay, hugs! *gives Lawtan and the little grey toad both hugs*

Eyes in the night, living shadow. Aroooooooo.

...I don't THINK I've had too much sugar this morning.

[Den]

lol you sure about that, Tam? *grin*

[Lawtan]

Well, I do suffer from clinical depression, as has been noted elsewhere. I talked to a friend last night.

Summation of current state: Good ideas, but a lack of belief that I can (or deserve) to follow through with them. The assumption that "I'm not good enough to draw folktales, rewrite their legends in such a way to generate interest without being a complete <Disney's Pocahontas> about it." In addition to that, the knowledge that whatever I do, someone will hate me for it.

Combine with just a very bad day yesterday (and the stuff with the recent news...from Robin Williams to the government fucking around again...and mix that with dealing with a high lack of being able to understand where I fit into the world (leading to a sense of "I don't belong here...I'm broken...I should just disappear from everyone's lives...")

Yes, I am well aware that these feelings are immature and illogical, but I unfortunately have many days like that. How a more "public" person does it, I do not know.

[jaguarlyra]

Yeah I'm there to. I'm depressed again and I've been fighting it off and on for 10 years now. My depression added to how society treats me for being Autistic (and now Muslim), along with Gaza, ISIS, and one of my friends Dad being tortured means life has got really really sucky for me right now. To make it worse my biggest support is moving away. I found the best thing that helps me fight against feeling broken is to rant and bleed it out a bit, it only works for a little while but it helps along with SSRI's and my sister and friends support and I can almost function. What helps you?

[Lawtan]

Ranting helps a little...I usually try to find people feeling similar about certain things, and read/listen to what others try to reassure them with. Otherwise, fetal position and rocking until I am out of it. I used to be more violent against myself, but as part of the "one foot in front of the other" thing, I have mostly gotten out of the full-out self destructive part of my life. SSRI's would not be the best for me (as I have trouble with Serotonin in the first place - it would likely further mess it up).
Karate helped (Alternatives: Yoga, high-energy dance, Juijitsu, etc.), as did brushing (Wilbarger Brushing helped with stress, but I have to remember to do it...which is hard with stress)

*Hugs fellow Autsie* (High Functioning Autistic)

[jaguarlyra]

I don't really like functioning labels, it seems weird to be measured against NT's expectations and expect it to cover all categories at all times for example one could say I'm "low functioning" when I loose my words but "high functioning" when they learn I got into college ect.

[Lawtan]

That is very true. Either way, *hugs*

Oh, and before I forget, comedy and humor help also.

[jaguarlyra]

I like deep pressure hugs and lying under heavy objects when I'm really stressed out. Do you also have sensory issues?

[Lawtan]

Very much so, yes. Along with some OCD, legal blindness (can't do anything visual without very thick glasses) and an assortment of other things. (Migraines, for example)

[jaguarlyra]

I'm a -9.75 in both eyes lol. I find that stress is a big trigger for me.