[Asami]

Edit: make sure to read some of my later posts because I didn't explain well enough in this post about the situation this is only a part of the problem also editing on another part at the end of this post


So as most of you know I got the kindle fire for my birthday. Not whet I wanted(which was a laptop) but its still pretty cool. The problem is I cant do anything on it unless I have wifi for Internet until I get an amazon card or whatever.I cant even get free stuff. So I'm a little put off by that. My dad promised to get me a card so I could get stuff to make this kindle actually worth something and usable.
So today my mom wanted me to go around town with her rather early for my taste I couldn't get up and she draggged me around this weekend waking me up early after not being able to sleep at all. I'm just bone tired! She threw a fit! Started calling me names saying I was a lazy b**** and so on. Blaming the mess in the kitchen on me even though I wasn't here at all this weekend saying I had to clean it up alone! She then stormed off and called my father telling him that they are going to get me a card for this now worthless kindle and they never will. She hung up and left slamming the door. Apparently I just have to to everywhere with her or its the end of the world. I just need sleep! Dx

I didn't ask for this kindle. I wanted a simple laptop that you didn't have to buy a damn gift card to use e.e I'm just pissed off and not to mention my pmdd makes me want to throw this thing across the room and shatter it to a million pieces the cry my eyes out and cut myself!

I really hate this house. I'm forced to do all the work and if I question anything my parents say I am not on their level. Oh I'm sorry when did you become God? They are religious doesn't the Bible say ALL MEN ARE CREATED EQUAL?!?! My mom doesn't do anything around the house. She says she had us kids to do all the work! Okay then why dont any of the other boys do any work? Why is it all up to me to keep this house looking okay??

And I cant leave right now. I need a job and when I get one I don't know what will happen. My family constantly puts me down saying I'm lazy and worthless and stupid because I cant get a job. They are the ones who moved to a small town. And I would have to get a job within walking distance so that really limits the possibility of getting a job.

//sigh
I'm forcing myself to stop ranting because I might say something I'd regret. And I don't want to do that...

Any thoughts?
I cant help feeling forgotten and unloved because on my birthday I had to tell everyone it was my bday
my mom and dad didn't even get a cake I asked "so what type of cake did you get me" and my dad gasped and was like " omg we forgot to get a cake!" -_- total bs.
My best friend made me a cake from scratch. She made me feel better. Idk am I sounding like a total spoiler brat?? Am I wrong to feel this way?!?
Sorry I ranted a bit more

Excuse any spelling mistakes I'm on this stupid kindle and I hate touch typing. I am not good at it like I am at keyboard typing.

Edit:
also I am very sleepy so things may be vague so ill explain it better later if you ask about it



Edit:
If you dint care to read my other posts ill give you a good breakdown in a pm

[Demonskid]

*hugs asami* sorry your birthday ended up like that. I don't know what to say other then your parents need some help. People shouldn't have children just to make them do all the house chores, and it's even worse they don't make your siblings do anything to help out.

[Asami]

I know
and every single time I speak up about it they shoot me down saying I'm not the parent. And how they did all the work. My dad cant even make his own plate.of food. I have to make it and give it to him!!!!! U.U

[Demonskid]

ono find a friend who lives alone and move in with them.. and get a job.. I would be doing my best to move out.

People have enough problems and don't need parents to create more. Your parents should be helping you not putting you down like they do.

[Asami]

I have no friends that live alone
no one hires here where I live e.e it sucks!

[Demonskid]

No one hires here either =/

[Asami]

//sighs
I wish I could get a job

[Demonskid]

Same *sighs* If i had a job i could have a lot of games *o*

[Asami]

If I had one id be able to get all the things I would need like food clothes shoes girl products ectect

[Muff Muff]

Wal-mart always hires.

[Asami]

Walmart is not in walking distance
my mom refuses to drive me anywhere to get a job

[Muff Muff]

No bus?

[KHPotion98]

Asami, my family is Christian..and they take the religious part of it seriously but they are still the same parents. They give us chores *even if we don't do them...even if they yell at us..it's cause were lazy*, they take us EVERYWHERE*yesterday i was talking to a friend on skype and randomly my mom says "Do you want to come with me to the store?!" i say no...or wait ONE second...and she says "Hurry up" 3 seconds later..."Come On"..me "Wait a sec...shoes"..mom "Here's some flip flops put them on and get in the freaking truck" i just listen -.- Anywho...asami...i have 3 sisters *2 older 1 younger* and i share a room...i have to clean our room..and do the clothes and floors and dishes while everyone else is 'busy' on the computers...it seems like I'm not busy because I'm on the computer quiet a bit..but i am actually busy...i do some chores then computer then some chores then computer. My birthday was ruined 3 years in a row..every time a move it ALWAYS lands on my birthday...1st year...no cake...1 present*computer* *since money was used for house* and nothing else. 2nd year....no cake 2 presents *a card from a friend and a phone..* nothing else. 3rd year of moving...in a row..*last year*....Cupcakes made from our neighbor who went to church with us and she gave me a card with 10 dollars...i used that money for food since we moved and we barely HAD anything....and last year i had to sell my tv, ds, all of my games, my ipod, my camera, my dvds, and my 2 bunnies(all of these were gifts from Christmas and/or friends) for food too...since NO one else gave up stuff for food. It was either sell items or starve..so i chose the first option. So..i kinda know what your going through...not the whole deal..but most of it.

[Asami]

No bus) :

Yeah well there's a lot I'm holding back because its not the place to say these things.
It may seem trivial but this is just a scratch on the surface

I was engaged before my parentsHATE nh boyfriend they made me break it off with him. Next thing I know my brother kynan is engaged to this tramp. My parents gush over her giving her things they never got me. They bought her clothes. I haven't gotten a new wardrobe in forever! I had to beg and cry just to get new shoes and recently shorts. And my boyfriend payed for half of the price!!!! My mom threw a fit over these items so she went out and got two pairs of expensive shoes just to show me my place. I kinds went off a bit u.u anywho they LOVE Kelley. They get her stuff all the time. But my boyfriend is like the devil to them! He does soo much for them and me. I don't know why kynan and Kelley have sex all the time so its not me and Mike having sex. Or maybe it is ideek. If so that's unfair! //sigh I was all over the place with this post. Hope you can read it right

[Muff Muff]

How old are you and your brothers?

[Asami]

25 22 20 19 16 I am 19
okay so my dad just called me into the living room and told.me its my resposability to put in 8 hours if work at the house every day. What? U.U why just me? They didn't do this to any of my brothers... I mean I understand doing stuff but my mom does nothing. What kind of example is that?! And I have to go around with her everywhere no matter what the time is ectect. Just kick me out of the goddamn house. This place sucks the life out of.people all my friends say once they enter my house they instantly feel sad or mad ect.