[Tiva]

Alpha has only been away for AIT for a week and all ready a lot has happened.

First off our dog, Midnight, who i love deeply, has gotten really aggressive with me. He is trying to take over Alpha status, with it boiling up today to him biting my foot when i was toeing him away from our front door. He didn't break skin, which is good but I am seriously having to work with him. No food bowl on the ground and a muzzle on him constantly when I am home. He lost all of his toys, treats, and furniture privileges until his attitude calms down and he respects me as an alpha while Alpha is gone.
Secondly, my mother and he long term boyfriend are finally splitting up. This is coming after close to 6 years of them being together and living together for 4 of them. I couldn't be more happy about it because the man is poison to my mother, and she hasn't been happy for some time; but with it comes her moving out and into a new place. She has decided to move into an apartment close to her job as a manager of a part of the hospital, and is moving in before October. There are a few problems with it, like the fact that I cant go down to help her, and tightening her finances to reflect upon it. She seems fine but I know that it is killing her to move because she really wanted them to work out her differences.
Thirdly, my classes are pouring in on me and I am just not balancing them well. Between Alpha being gone and the other two problems lately I have been depressed and don't want to even go to my classes. I miss having some one at the house, and Midnight being a little shit means that I can't curl up with him and cuddle. I am literally just getting swamped up with mixed feelings and I can't sort myself out. My friends up here are mostly couples, and I don't want to rain on their parade with me being depressed. The other ones don't ask, or care, and it just makes me feel like I am nothing but an anchor right now.

I know I seriously need to perk up, but this past week has sucked, majorly. I just want Alpha back and to be able to go help my mom. These 3 big things just make all of the little things worse, like our microwave breaking while I made lunch, or the fact that not one but 2 of the people I asked to be a bridesmaid either said no or are avoiding talking to me about it.

[Lucid:]

**hugs Tiva**
Call your mom and talk to her every day. It sounds like you both need each other's company. I'm here to talk to as well.

[Tiva]

I have been talking to my Mother daily, but not being able to be there with her to help is taking its toll. I hung out with a friend most of the weekend, and finally got to talk to Alpha so it is better. These first few weeks are just a lot tougher than last time.

[Lucid:]

I'm glad you were able to talk to him. :3 **hugs** I know it's rough right now, but it will be the best time of your life soon.

[hyjin]

-sneaks up behind tiva and hugs her-

[VixieMooCow]

trust me hun, with all this crap piled up on you, your going to have some amazing weeks to follow... you have to deal with the crap because it gets better