[whitexsuicide]

anime saturday.... you must tell me more, hell!

[Helsinki Harlot]

I'ts on adult swim. They've started putting anime back into the line up. You can go to their website to see what they've got playing right now. (Sadly for me I passed out in the middle of it. ): But it's okay, I really needed that sleep.)

Neirra; xD Sounds to me like you've already decided on that car. <3

[whitexsuicide]

REALLY!?!?!? that is awesome!! next saturday i have off that is what i am doing!

[Helsinki Harlot]

Def. I mean it's super super late at night. They still play family guy, king of the hill, and american dad but after that it's anime.

[whitexsuicide]

awesome. I can't wait to watch it all then~

[Helsinki Harlot]

So. Sarah spilled vodka and orange juice all over my work laptop. Don't know if I'll get around to the art. Or any of my school shit, or old statements, or my pictures, hell my entire life for YEARS is on that hard drive. My writing work, my poems, just... I need a drink.

[Mizeria]

-peaks in and tackles Hels-

[Helsinki Harlot]

-falls to the floor and loves on- <3

[Mizeria]

teehee
i wish you lived closer,
we'd totally go out and have some fun
and then you could met tony
^^

annnd that story... still is half written... and needs to be added too
>//////>

[Helsinki Harlot]

Wish I lived closer too. We'd have a bomb-ass time together. ROAD TRIP TIEM!!! :D

;D How is Tony?

[Mizeria]

well... to make long story. SHORT.
and we can make it detailed as we go.

Tony was hitting on me Sunday night into Monday morning.
I didn't think anything of it... not really
it felt nice to be hit on for once
then he has Monday nights and Tuesday nights off.
so when I saw him Wednesday it was the next day he had work.
I got the free corset. doesn't look half bad...

after everyone left and it was dead in there tony was hitting on me again
xD

then it turned into "comeon ash lets have sex -insert random place in store-"

I kept saying no. I'm the only one to EVER tell him no. or at least thats what he says.
and I believe him.
girls are all over him all the time...

uhh...

MORE TO BE ADDED
xDD

[Helsinki Harlot]

[/ is totally not writing fanfiction in her head] >.>

[Mizeria]

-dies laughing-

[Helsinki Harlot]

I'm pretty sure I already told you that I'm living vicariously through your life. xD THE WORLD NEEDS MORE TONY'S!

[Mizeria]

oh its bad, cause Hi I'm Mizzy and I'm a sex addict.
And I haven't had sex in a while..
xD

So since he was hitting on me on Sunday night I was already thinking about him that way... which was weird.
cause I wanted to be that one girl that didn't "fall for tony"
but he's a good guy, and he keeps me sane.
which is hard to do nowadays.

so anywaaays,

I told him I don't just fuck guys.
Its the way I am. It needs to mean something more.
I need a relationship... and I want it to be something... idk "special"
So even though I'm addicted and think about it all the time... I have control.

Which is odd, I'm gathering.

when I told him I needed to be in a relationship with that person. He turned around and asked me out. Which totally makes me think HE JUST WANTS SEX so I didn't say anything and sorta laughed at him. later on I asked him if he was serious, and he said yeah, it would be whatever you wanted it to be. A relationship or just sex.. or whatever. and I again didn't say anything.

by the end of his shift he was pretty much begging for sex. "so we should have sex in the bathroom." -No- "Or in the back of that guys truck" -NO- "Or on the table...?" -NO-

and it went on and on.

Finally I asked him why he wanted to have sex with me so bad, because I don't think highly of myself. I'm not a looker... I'm not someone that's always sought after. I'm just not.

and he had a lot of answers but in the end didn't know which one was the real reason why.

"Because you said you've been with two guys, that they didn't last long enough for you, that I couldn't classify your tastes because I didn't know you well enough. On top of all of that, you're not like anyone I've ever gone after. You're not some stupid little girl with no brain that just says yes, You're the only one that's ever talked circles around me... the only one that's ever said no."

All of that was on Wednesday night/Thursday morning.

Thursday night and Friday night he acted like none of that EVER happened...
which confused the shit outta me... honestly I was kinda hurt by it.

then last night once everything had died down. he was back to the, "you should fuck me in the bathroom" thing.

Before I left I said "maybe if you switched your tactic you might get more out of this. I told you why I will always say no. I'll see ya Wednesday tony." and walked out before he could say anything.

[Helsinki Harlot]

NOT NESC. IN ORDER OF FEELS WHILE READING BUT; this is a short synopsis of my feels reading that.