[Saiyouri]

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❀ Lol poor thing ; ; *hugs* Here's to hoping
tomorrow goes by great!! ❂

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[Serra Britt]

Haha I bet it will XD I've hardly had any idea what's going on and I was able to get through the teaching part fine XD

[Saiyouri]

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❀ Aww, I'm sure you will keep doing great. ^^
Sounds kinda fun teaching people things. ❂

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[Serra Britt]

It's AMAZING. It's like I was born for the role.

[Saiyouri]

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❀YAY I'm so glad to hear that!! So happy you
found the perfect job for you. ❂

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[Serra Britt]

I wish it wasn't just seasonal...but still I'm so happy to have had the chance to do this.

[Saiyouri]

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❀Aww seasonal jobs suck ; ; Is there a chance you
can turn this into a all time job? ❂

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[Serra Britt]

Not sure. At the very least it's not like I won't still be working for them when the job ends, just will be what I was before, phone operator.

[Saiyouri]

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❀ Well at least you will have something still.
That is good. ❂

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[Serra Britt]

Saiyouri, may I get your opinion on something that's been on my mind a while?

I'm currently in a somewhat complicated relationship with a girl in France. It's wonderful and I love her but the likelihood of it being more than what it is now is almost nonexistent because she has severe problems with being near people in person. For a while I thought I didn't mind it being strictly online...but for the past few months I've realized that it's not what I want. To be honest I have no problems continuing what we do even if we weren't in a relationship, and sometimes I think she doesn't even consider that we may be.

I have met Lunaryon from here in person and we're both very compatible with each other... Twice I asked her to date me and twice I threw it away because I thought I couldn't give her enough of myself to be worth it. I think I should ask her again but I'm afraid that my love for someone I can't be with will prevent me again. I'm just trying to work through it for now. I'm afraid of throwing her away a third time, but I really love her...not as much as I love the one in France but I know I can be with her and that is something I REALLY want in a relationship.

You can just give me thoughts on it if you want. I'm not looking for a solution from others, I need to figure it out on my own really :p

[Saiyouri]

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❀ Wow that is one tough choice you have on
your hands right now. On one hand you have someone
you deeply love but can't be with and on the other
you have someone you can be with but afraid you won't
be able to be with her.

Only thing I can think of is try to take some time away
from them both and try to think things through. I know it's
easier said than done but you might be able to figure out
who you want to be with by cutting contact with them for
a little while. Like a few days or something. Maybe the time
away from them might help you figure out who you want to
be with more and who you know you can be happy with for sure.

I hope that helps you. *hugs tightly* I so hope you can
figure this out hun *hugs* ❂

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[Serra Britt]

I did have a couple weeks away from both of them actually. They were both gone for a while. I was far happier when Luna came back because Luna shows how much she cares for me...the one from France doesn't really. I know full well a relationship has to be both ways...which is why sometimes it feels as if the one in France doesn't consider us to be in one, and just be really close instead. I really don't know still. I have a severe emotional block when it comes to considering what it is I want for myself.

[Saiyouri]

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❀ Well to me that is a sign that you and Luna are meant
for each other. And it might even work out too.
The one in France might just consider you two just
close, especially if she has a hard time getting
close to people in person. Too bad too. I feel
bad for the poor thing. ❂

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[Serra Britt]

I kind of feel like I'm meant for both of them. It's just that with Luna, it feels mutual. The one in France...well she often says she doesn't deserve my love. It's not true of course, she does. I just worry that maybe because I feel sorry for her I'm staying with her...I don't think that's true either because I care for her VERY deeply.

[Saiyouri]

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❀Poor dear. I feel so bad for her. She truly
deserves your love. This is truly one hard choice
you have on your hands. You might be with her a bit
because of you feeling bad for her. That is how it is
with my husband.

I think you and Luna would be a good thing. It sounds
like that poor thing in France needs to work on herself
a bit before she will be able to handle a relationship.
Even with help with it, it will still take her a long
time working on it. I feel so bad for her. I just want
to hug her. ❂

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[Serra Britt]

She and I share a bond, and it's a very strong bond so I'm sure that no matter what we will remain close. I think maybe I am pushing for something she's not ready for and may never be ready for considering what she's been though. But that's alright, as long as I can continue to spend time with her I think I will be fine with what turns out.

Thankies so much for your observations on this Saiyouri :3