[Duchess]

yaarrrr... I could make it free if you give me permission to experiment ;D

There's this colouring style...using gradients and the lasso tool..that I wanna try XP

[Muff Muff]

I DO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I love being a test subject~

[Bina Fydan]

You're welcome, Duchess. Lol! Gradient and lasso tool.. I remembered playing around with those when I had photoshop.. *tries to remember*

@Duchess: I edited info for the order, about the skin. >_>; Just forgotten about it so forgive me. >_<

[Rem]

Ohhhhhh new....art....so...shiny!
Man I love that.

[Sadrain]

Duchess, did you get the aurum transfer? Zypher said she finished it, but I wasn't sure if you got notified of that.

[Duchess]

@Sadrain: Yush I did get it OwO Thank you <333

@Rem: Thank you!! and is it Rem.. Like REM Sleep.. Rapid Eye Movement... Can I call you Rapid?? =D

@Bina: it's ok... I havent started yet. i got sick today TT_TT

@Muff: YAY!! I have something to test it on OwO

[Sadrain]

Okay, than all is fine. ^^ And you don't need to thank ME. XD

And get better soon, Duchess. D: -hugs-

[Duchess]

I dont know about that.. I slept for over 15 hours. my head hurtsss soooo much. I feel weak and i wanna sleep some more =___=

And everything I eat, leaves a sour aftertaste in my mouth. Like all the food is spoilt T_T
Even the water leaves that bad taste. I can't stand it.

Not to mention my left breast is starting to irritate me now. It hurts a bit.. I need surgery dammit. But im so effin poor and the public hospitals here is SHIT!

*cries*

Dammit.. i said a bad word .__. *headdesks*

And yes i can thank you. You had to send the PM xD

[Sadrain]

Awh, Duchess. D: -hugs and sends healing magic your way- I am so sorry. Take some pain killers and go to nap? Or maybe go and take a short, short walk. Maybe you need some fresh air. I still suggest just trying to sleep it out. It might not help, but if you manage to fall asleep, at least time will pass quicker.
And you can curse if you feel like that. >o< -hugs-

Also, it wasn't hard work. XD But you're welcome. x3

[Duchess]

{EDIT} I hate whining... so let's just say that it might not be such a good idea. .____________.

[Sadrain]

-snuggles- I hate whining/ranting, too, buuut sometimes when you vent it all out, it gets better. Well, for me it does in 95% of cases, so it pays off. XD Plus, to some listeners, it doesn't seem like whining at all, just talking.

[Duchess]

The main reason I dont like to tell my problems.. Is because of the "awww I know how you feeeeel" that comes after.

I HATE that. I don't want your sympathy or your pity. It's annoying.

I got banned on a forums for that. I ranted in a thread called "Let's complain about stuff" and specifically asked for people to not give me sympathy and that i would edit the post in the morning..

And what happened. I got 3 replies all stating that "they kno how i feel" even tho what they said wasnt the LEAST bit related to my post. And when I called them out on it, I got banned for stirring up the drama. o teh lolz. =____= Because apparently they were the o so most perfect friends in the world (the backstabbing kind) and I couldnt see that O_o

[Sadrain]

Well. Sometimes... people really know how you feel and wish they could help. It's not always really "oh, poor, helpless you" thing. But, in general, I know that sometimes being hugged and told "I'm sorry" makes you feel even more sorry for your self, to the point of really crying (which isn't always bad, since a good cry sometimes make things better, wash something away), and sometimes also feel like you are just doing the wrong thing by talking to them, as if you are bothering them and that in the end they will throw it in your face.

I had an experience where a really, really close friend told me that I can talk to her about EVERYTHING. That time was horrible in my life, so I ranted a lot. She seemed so understanding, supported me. And then one day when I said I couldn't RP/be cheerful, she started saying that I am ungrateful, whiny kid who makes everything much more worse than it is and just wants to be felt sorry for. We fought and went different ways, but she cried to our shared friends how horrible and heartless I am and from then on, those friendships were never like before, too. Not to mention, she tried to start up friendship one more time and if I hadn't been more careful, it had went down the exact same way... She contacted me again recently...

-sighs- Now I ranted, I guess. I fail at keeping my thoughts to my self for the most part, ahaha. XD;

[Duchess]

LOL. It's ok. I listen. Because I hate people trying to help when I'm sad, it's only fair that I demonstrate how I like it. xD I'm the quiet, you-can-rant-at-me-like-a-wall type. c: I only give input if you ask for it. ^^

And that's basically what happened in that thread. Except that girl was an admin XDD And she took her feelings and kicked me out. Damn abuse of power. lolz. *shrugs*

Enough staining my lovely thread with depressing stuffs. *shines it clean*

Any happy stuffs to talk about?? Like I might go to see Inception again tomorrow OwO

[Sadrain]

Well, but that's what real friends do - wish they could help their friends. At least, for me it's like that. I have never had much friends whom I could have trusted for their words to come from heart, though. But since I hate lies, I am pretty honest about it my self. I try not to rant, but I think I am not a horrible listened. I am too young to actually give much helpful advices, but if ranting can help someone, I am willing to listen.

I hate when people do that. @_@ I haven't really been in situation where someone uses their higher ranked powers against me, but it must feel pretty bad. ._. It's totally unfair.

And ohkay. XD Let's talk about something else.
I am heading off to bed now, though. I was just watching some Moonspell live videos, that's why still here. ;;>.>

I hope you feel better tomorrow! -hug-

[Duchess]

I hope so too >w< I'm do my best *heroic pose*