[Meizicht]

Might just go to bed.

[Lauv Keiko]

talk to me later on skype when you can get back online, sweetie.

[Meizicht]

Actually, I probably wont be talking to many people for a while. Thinking about stopping this whole webtoon thing too, since it's so selfish. I'm not even really that good lol.
+reality sunk in+
Back to lurking I guess, if I don't feel better tomorrow.

[Lauv Keiko]

Oh c'mon, meiz. I love your webtoon.
I know that one comment can really put you down, but everyone was really excited and happy about it.
> u < aren't you happy that you'll make me love shounen ai again?
it's kind of a good thing since I can rp with others who only RP yaoi. o3o

[hyjin]

>.<
Ma face has been poked

[Lauv Keiko]

*pokity poke poke's hyjin's nose*
> U <

[Meizicht]

It's not about what people think of the webtoon. This is sparked because I have barely a presence for my dad anymore. I can't share anything that makes me happy with anyone, because it's stupid to "normal" people. I'm just tired. I want to give up trying to do/be things I want to be, just because I want to be happy. I mean, as long as I'm not dead, nobody's going to give a shit.

Tomorrow, everything will be like usual.

[Lauv Keiko]

so does that mean you're going to stop doing the webtoon?

[Meizicht]

I don't want to. It makes me happy. But I don't know what they want me to do.

[Lauv Keiko]

Don't let it get through you then. Do what you want to do, something that makes you happy. You're not stepping on any people, they just disapprove of it.
I know what you feel because that's what I'm going through right now.

[hyjin]

i made myself a new avi

[Meizicht]

Nevermind, I'm sorry for all this.
I'll be alright tomorrow, and if not, maybe the next day. I'll just keep trying to sleep it off.

[Lauv Keiko]

That part, I didn't know, meiz. I'm really sorry...but as you've mentioned, I won't say anything comforting or considerate since you've mentioned it's unecessary.
But a just a question:: Your happiness to them doesn't matter? I mean, that's good for you. They want you to be normal which I know you won't like for yourself, and if you're gunna do that... you'll cheer them up?
So basically, you're gunna sacrifice your happiness just so your dad can "accept" you?
I don't wanna say this, but your dad's being an ass to you.

[Meizicht]

I made him sound really bad. He's not. He's a very good guy, and in fact, I shouldn't complain at all since he breaks his ass at work every day for us. So, lets just forget about this. ^^;
He doesn't do any of that intentionally, I don't think. I think he honestly just doesn't notice me. Nothing I do can really get him to. I think I'm just not used to being happy, so I figure I need to be punished in some way to make up for it. If nobody else does it, I do it myself, like this.

[Lauv Keiko]

and your self-pity kicks in, meiz. I know your dad is not a bad guy, I did say though that he's being an ass to you for just "tolerating" you
is that because the way your are? = n =
Everyone deserves to be happy, meiz. That's cliche, but it's true.

[Meizicht]

Self-pity? I don't want to be pitied, so why would I pity myself? Sorry, if I came off like that, I wont drag this out. I just needed to rant a little somewhere, and Kai's been busy, so I couldn't go to him this time.
I won't make a habit of it, lol. You know I usually lurk instead.