[Kimmi]

Rofl did we really? lol nice. And it's okay. Still love this site

[gremlin]

I'm sure that eventually they will get one!
I can't wait. :)

[gremlin]

I keep playing around with my avatar and I got this!
I love it. :)

[Kimmi]

I love this too ^^

[gremlin]

Ah!
It's so pretty.

:)

[gremlin]

I love the colours on here, they make me happy.

[Kimmi]

Thanks ^^ The Newbie Charity donated this stuff to me~

[gremlin]

That's good, I should send in an application there but... I'm well off now so they probably can't really help me anymore.

[Kimmi]

XD I'm okay now too I think ^^

[gremlin]

My mom is starting to annoy me.
My dog has tumours in her lungs.
She's waiting on results to see if the tumours are cancer. But she also has them elsewhere... and quite frankly it doesn't matter if they are not cancer or are. She has tumours in her lungs. That's the second worst place, the first is the brain.
Someone wants to do the operation for us for $1500 ( another vet said it would be $3000 ). But chances are my dog will die on the operating table or would die shortly after. She would probably only live another 6 months at the most. But even then wouldn't she still be sick? Wouldn't she still be in pain? I wouldn't want to just be waiting to find her dead. That's horrible. I also wouldn't want her to be suffering, that's cruel.
We also don't have $1500 to do that. And my grandmother ( who is well-off ) offered us $5000 to do the operation. But... knowing my grandmother for the rest of our lives she will pull the "how could you do that to me? I gave you $5000 to save your dog!" bullshit.
I don't want that.

Anyways.
She just came up to me and said "Mila just ate half a chicken!" which is great. Mila has not eaten that much in nearly three weeks. We changed her dog food brand, she refused it. We tried wet food, she refused it eventually. She even turned down human food and cat food, she wouldn't take treats either. Now it's to the point where she can't run or walk because her legs shake and she's so weak. She only faintly wags her tail when you lay next to her/sit next to her and give her some love and talk to her. We came back from the third vet yesterday and I had to pick her up ( she's a golden ) from the seat and bring her out because she was too scared to jump out of the car. And.... good, she ate. That's good. But.... she's terribly sick still and eating won't make that go away.

[gremlin]

I just wish that my mom would stop getting excited when Mila does things that she hasn't in three weeks. Last night my boyfriend came over, and Mila stood, tail wagging and greeted him. She hasn't done that for three weeks. I was really happy, she got love from my boyfriend ( pets and he talked to her, even though he's allergic to dogs, he loves her. ). I looked at my mom and she was smiling, I knew what she would have said if she had said anything. It bothers me... and she isn't like in denial. I talked to her about how we can't do anything, and yesterday she said Mila would be here for the last few days. She knows what is going to happen... I don't know.

Maybe I'm a bad guy for being so negative.

[Kimmi]

Awwwww that's so terrible to hear... Im so sorry she isn't well. And I know what you mean... I went through the same kind of thing with my cat Tigger. He had a tumor on is back that led to cancer... and he died before I could tell him goodbye T_T

[gremlin]

Awh, hunny. I'm so sorry to hear that. I know how hard it can be to lose a loved pet.

[gremlin]

I'm sorry for complaining.
My mom got mad when I said to her "I don't know what to say to you."
I don't think that she told my younger or older brother that Mila has tumours elsewhere yet....

[Kimmi]

Probably not. And it was terrible... I wanted to have him put to sleep to end the suffering but I never had a chance. Sad thing is, 6 months and 5 days later, my mom's cat died of old age. But I think he missed Tigger.

[gremlin]

That could always be it.
I have a smaller dog and two cats.
I'm afraid my smaller dog will become depressed/lonely and will pass from that. :(