[Rosekitten]

He was about to answer the poor drunken Mizuki when he forced a sudden switch of positions. "What do you mean? I don't doubt it! you left before you could let me finish." He sighed a little "don't look at me that way you have no damn reason to be sad..."

He frowned a little hearing the voice Mizuki was using as he moved a hand to brush some of his hair back. "please don't think I doubt it.. I don't. You never let me finish earlier." He sighed heavily knowing what he wanted to say but he couldn't bring himself to say it.

[Pinkie]

Mizuki looked to him with almost pleading eyes "Then continue....please continue" He said looking to him. Mizukis cheeks were flushed in a drunken way but his eyes read pain, hunger and need all in one "Explain to me then..." He said to Thalion "So...My heart wont hurt anymore" He said almost sadly his ears dropping.

[Rosekitten]

"explain.. er.. " He seemed to grow silent a moment knowing what he needed to say but he didn't like just blurting out such things, it wasn't how he was .. but Mizuki needed to hear this. This was his fault from the beginning. "I was trying to say earlier how'd I end up being lucky... you could have had anyone and being around for such a time hell .." He sighed a little before going on "I had planned on being alone, aside from Neimi I cared about no one and she was more of a child to me then anything.."

He probably still failed at explaining his point across to a drunken mizuki but he was dreadful with words in this situation so he had nothing better to say other then he had gotten damned lucky, they could have killed each other when they first laid eyes on one another.

[Pinkie]

Mizuki looked down at Thalion "Well...would you wrather be alone?" Mizuki asked slightly. He already knew what Thalion was going to say and for some reason he needed to hear it from the male below. Mizuki leaned down a little with a growl on his lips as the other didnt speak "You would...woudnt you..." He said in a slightly hurt matter.

Mizuki went to move off of the male when still no answer came to meet bent back ears. Did Thalion really want to be alone or was he just playing with Mizukis heart strings to try and get a reaction out of him. He didnt know.

[Rosekitten]

He couldn't believe that he was even asking that, he was in shock for a few moments unable to reply back to him because of what had been asked. How could he say that? After everything they had gone through hell if he wanted to be alone he would have killed Mizuki off a year ago, better yet he probably would have killed him at the Eastern camp.

When he felt Mizuki trying to move he grabbed him to prevent him from doing so, then he moved a hand to his face to force him to look at him. Thalion had a slightly angered look crossing his expression as he said his next words. "I never said I wanted to be alone damn it! Your saying a lot of assigning shit right now you know that? Are you even listening to yourself?!"

He released Mizuki a moment later before he moved to sit up a little though Mizuki was still over top of him. "If i had wanted to be alone I would have gotten rid of you over a year ago, hell you weren't even fighting back then. Nothings changed your just putting words into my mouth that I have never once said, frankly it's starting to piss me off really."

He sighed a little trying to get his temper back under control it wouldn't help to get pissed off at him and fly off the handle not when he was like this. "I already explained to you that I'm not tat great with wording things at times, but you wouldn't listen to me before you stormed out of the house. Instead you went off got piss ass drunk and now your acting like a damn woman crying over nothing!"

[Pinkie]

Mizuki stopped and listened to everything that Thalion said. True it was nothing that the male before him at ever said but it was his thoughts and Thalion now layed under him all but yelling inchs from his face because he voiced his thoughts? How was that even fair? Mizuki growled before he pushed up off of the male before standing.

Though in doing so he tripped over his feet and landed on his ass with an exhale of air. He didnt care when Thalion sighed and stood reaching a hand out to him. He slapped it away and growled lowly "Dont....dont touch me' He said shocking the other and he watched as Thalion took a step back.

"All my life I searched for the one that I could say I loved...and I found him" Mizuki began his head hung a little. "And now that man that I love calls me a women" He said with a little tinge of laughter "And yells at me for voicing thoughts" He said "It was better when it was left unspoken right..." He said before moving over and back. Leaning against the wall he crossed his legs and hung his head. Sitting the same way he had when he first got there. Not speaking. Not moving. Nothing, just sat there.

[Rosekitten]

His ears dropped wen Mizuki slapped his hand away before going on about what he had said. Though he didn't say anything at first as he watched as he moved back to the same spot he was in back when he first was here. He started to say something but didn't. What was he suppose to say. He knew damn well that Mizuki was right.

At first he was going to just leave him there till he sobered up, though it was starting to get to him the longer the other just sat there and did nothing.. Sure Thalion knew what he meant but apparently no matter what he said it wasn't good enough for Mizuki. Even when he near about yelled at him that he loved him it didn't get through.

After a while longer of trying to think of something to say his temper finally going over the edge with Mizuki and how he was acting now let alone all of the things he had said. He stormed over to Mizuki before grabbing other other and pushing him downwards so he pinned him against the floor as he was forced onto his stomach. With Mizuki didn't expect this so the pinning process was easy as Thalion moved a little to hiss out his words near Mizuki's ear. "You don't believe me.. then I'll show you my love.." Once he was finished speaking he bit the other's ear rather roughly before releasing it.

Mere seconds later he heard Mizuki's cries in protest as he tried to get from under the other. But he didn't seem to care as he went about ripping Mizuki's clothes off and keeping keeping him pinned against the floor. Misuki didn't believe him, no matter what he said he'd prove to him what his thoughts were what his true feelings were even if Mizuki didn't want them.

[Pinkie]

Mizuki was shocked to say the least. He was expecting the other to storm the house, yell call him names maybe even hit him to beat the message into his head, but Mizuki never expected the thing he got instead. Being forced down to the ground he gasped as he was flipped to his stomach being roughly pushed into the ground. His heart stopped as the other male leaned down and whispered into his ear "You dont believe me..then I'll show you my love"

Mizukis heart began to beat faster as he felt the first tug of his clothes. Did Thalion mean that...no, he couldnt. Mizuki began to protest and yell trying to force the other off of him. Mizuki didnt want this! He cried out and stopped his protests as the seiring hot fire raced up his back from a dry and forced entry.

Mizuki shuddered and yelled. Growling low he tried his hardest to get the other male to stop his actions. Tears running down his cheek ad the other was forced into the floor by a strong hand his cheek getting scratched on the rough wood below.

Soon Mizuki gave up trying to prevent what was happening and laid defeated under the other male crying brokenly. Mizuki then felt the male behind him shudder as the pain and fustration was finaly done and Thalion pulled back. He whimpered blood and other things running down shakey white legs. Mizuki collapsed the rest of the way to the ground.

His eyes were dull and lifeless as he stared at something forgotten. His breathing was pained and his right cheek now sporting a deep purple and blue bruise began to swell. A hand mark appearing on his side in the same sickening color. Mizuki didnt care at that moment that he was nakid from head to toe his hair falling around him.

[Rosekitten]

Even through all the protests and cries to stop he never listened. He was half blinded by the fact he wanted Mizuki to know what he felt but from all of the frustration at the fact that he couldn't explain to the other no matter what he said or did .. it had all piled upon his shoulders for most of this time. This wasn't the first time Mizuki had said things that Thalion never said, as if he were trying to push away from him.

After everything was over with and Mizuki collapsed the rest of the way to the floor Thalion finally did get out of his blinded state knowing what he had just done, for that alone Mizuki should leave him he didn't do anything to solve the problems between the two of them. He stayed there motionless for a few moments still staying over top of Mizuuki.

After recovering himself a little his ears dropped as he moved to pull Mizuki up from the floor and close to him before burying his face into the other's neck. He seemed to quiver a little as he held him there sitting with his back against the wall. He mumbled his next words against the others skin saying he was sorry, really Thalion knew that Mizuki would probably leave after this, there was no point to stay here with someone who couldn't control their temper.

[Pinkie]

Mizuki laid there and cringed at the others touch though he didnt move away, he didnt have the energy to. As Thalion pulled him into his lap and held him there Mizuki did nothing. His arms hung loosely at his sides his head dipped back as the other expressed his feelings of sorrow for the act that he did.

Though the damage was done and Mizuki felt broken. The one he loved forced to take what he didnt want to give and that in itself broke his spirit. Mizuki stared to the roof above his head half lidded expressionless and dull orbs staring at nothing as Thalion tried to get him to speak to say anything.

What was there to say really? He couldnt change what took place. All he knew was that he didnt like it. When Thalion pulled back and loosened his grip Mizuki pushed back and away from the male weekly as Thalion gave no protest.

Mizuki stood on shakey legs as his back, legs and head gave protest to the movement. He turned and stopped as he heard Thalion speak though he didnt notice the words. All he noticed was when the words stopped. He stood there for a moment his hair covering his backside the tips turning red from blood until he forced himself to move.

Walking slowly he ignored everything around him. All Mizuki had in mind was a bath. Running the water he sat in a hot tub. When the water stopped Mizuki began to rub at his skin. Not for the fact that he felt dirty but for the fact that it was Thalion who caused him to feel that way.

Mizuki was now scrubbing at his skin with tears rolling down his cheeks faster and harder then before. His skin was red and blotchy from the treatment. The place he was working on now was about to look the same when he felt a stong hand grasp his stopping his movements and Mizuki froze. Turning terrified dull orbs up to the male before him noticing at the other flinched when he gazed into his eyes.

[Rosekitten]

He just stayed there at first, the thoughts going through his mind told him he was a rather pathetic being. Even as Mizuki walked away he couldn't bring himself to move, he was trying to get his mind around what he had just done. The one person he cared about and he just hurt them probably beyond repair.

After a while he forced himself to move, sitting here wasn't going to fix any of this, hell he didn't know how he was going to fix any of this really. He stood there at first in the door way of the washroom as he watched Mizuki, though it was easy enough to tell the damage was done and there was no amount of words that could take it back.

Walking over to him and placing a hand on his shoulder he saw the flood of emotions from the other, most of them that he wished he never saw. He didn't move for a moment until he felt Mizuki flinch under his hand. Drawing it back he wasn't sure what to do, this wasn't what he wanted.

Without really thinking he moved into the tub and pulled Mizuki close to him, forgetting all any any clothing he had on as he let out a soft whine against Mizuki's shoulder as he buried his face against the other. For what he did he'd gladly accept if the other hated him for the rest of his pathetic years.

He hopped the fact that Mizuki was already wet that he wouldn't notice that he was crying against his shoulder, he never bothered to show emotions but the thought that he had messed up this badly was really dawning on him, that he was going to lose Mizuki and it was his own damned fault.

[Pinkie]

Mizuki stiffened as the other male held onto him. He was scared of the others touch. This made Mizuki angry. And it was all the males fault infront of him. Mizukis anger rose the more he thought of it. Everything that happened was the males fault. Mizuki growled low the sound vibrating through his chest as his ears flattened.

Mizuki then reached two hands up and placed them on Thalions chest before pushing the male away from him and into the wall of the tub behind the males back. That is when Mizuki swung and cracked the male in the jaw with a strong right first whipping his head to the side.

For some reason that was not good enough for Mizuki and he slammed his left fist into Thalions chest with as much force as he could muster. Two more punches later and his hits became weakend and he cried. Tears running down his face, wet silver hair sicking to his back and arms as he now pounded light fits on the others wet clothe clad chest saying one thing over and over..."Why... why.... why..."

[Rosekitten]

He never offered to fight back, normally Thalion never left Mizuki hit him. Though strength alone he could have prevented the other from doing any of the strikes. but this he felt was better, just to let the other take out anything he felt.

His ears dropped listening to him saying why over and over, he didn't have a answer. What could he say? saying sorry wasn't fixing this, hell he didn't think anything would fix this. For now he just stayed silent letting Mizuki repeatedly hit him, even if each strike grew weaker as it went on.

Once he seemed to stop hitting him and just stayed there sobbing Thalion seemed to have a expression that was almost soulless. "I don't have a reason.. if it'd make you feel better then kill me, please. You can find your happiness elsewhere, probably with someone who can at least treat you the way you should be treated.. " He was pushed away each time he tried to hold him, hell Mizuki seemed to want to do nothing other then hit him at the moment, he wished he'd hit harder really.

A thought was that he was half tempted to give the guy one of his daggers just to see if he would end it, nothing would make up for what he had done. Anyone else he wouldn't have cared but not when he just destroyed the one person he wanted to stay by his side.

[Pinkie]

Mizuki groweled and for the first time since it happened his eyes met those of Thalions with anger, regret and sorrow clouding his vision with tears "Kill you....what would that do but cause me more harm..." He said angerly before hanging his head. His forehead rested on the other males chest as his body shook with anger and his sobs.

Mizukis voice then softened as his shoulders sunk "...the only one I want....is you" He said looking up with pain filled lavender orbs. "All I ever wanted...." He said hiccuping with tears. "I..could never kill you" He said before placing his head back onto the others chest "I...love you to much"

[Rosekitten]

"i wish you wouldn't.. not after what I did. Even death wouldn't allow me a freedom from the torment my soul will be forced through." Was his soft reply, he really did want death for once. He wouldn't fight it, hell he knew death wouldn't save him but it would prevent this from ever happening again. He wanted Mizuki to be happy and he had just destroyed that, even with Mizuki saying he loved him he couldn't accept such words.

He was still half crying and trying to hold back any further tears, though he didn't show it like Mizuki did keeping his voice steady and any real sign of pain from his thoughts hidden. He ha already done enough damage he didn't need Mizuki knowing that he was weak at the moment.

[Pinkie]

That is when Mizuki raised a shakey hand and placed it on the others cheek moving his face to peer at his own. Mizuki then brushed a lingering tear away from the underside of the males eye "Not as much as torment mine would face with out you..." He said looking deep into the eyes of the other male before him 'We...all make mistakes" Mizuki said shakily as he placed a hand on the scars of the others chest. The ones caused by a little necklace he once had.

"Yet....we move past them with hopes of a brighter future" He said sadly before he saw the face of the male below him crack a little. The mask the other had put into place so Mizuki wouldnt see his weakness began to slip and Mizuki continued hitting home within the others heart "You could take everything I had from me, cause me pain and neglect me...but I will always love you" Mizuki said "And will always love you...even with every mistake..." He said.

"So...please think of some one else aside from yourself for a moment" He said to Thalion "Think of what I want, how I feel, what I need..." He said almost painfully "All I need..." He said as he leaned down "...Is you" With that he kissed the male before him with all the anger and hurt that has been welling up inside of him.