[Wicked]

Well I was really upset about it and truth be told I'm still upset about it
but dwelling on it doesn't make my paychecks come any sooner so! Being upbeat!
Working on artsy stuffs since I'm off today and gonna listen to music and be happy if it kills me. ><

Good thing is - I talked to Jason about it. He can't help me with the financial aspect of it but he's supporting me emotionally. I had let this fester for DAYS without venting to anyone. Months really, but it only hit me HARD these last few days when I realized she hadn't paid on it for quite awhile.

Couldn't bring it up to Mom because she gets super defensive and/or emotional about it. And for some stupid reason I didn't want to mention it to Jason. I don't know.. I thought he'd be mad or something. Well he's not thrilled and tap dancing obviously but he didn't start an argument with my mom or call me stupid or anything. I had no basis on thinking he would call me stupid except that I feel stupid. So I dunno I figured he'd think I'm stupid? It all seems so silly now.

Anyway. As far as friends? Well. I didn't want to get on facebook and be like "Hey. Let me tell you my problems" and no one really lives close by. Even if - I still wouldn't have wanted to unload on anyone. I've just always been like that. Everyone has their own stuff to worry about so why add my stuff to their load?

This was an extremely long winded way of saying thanks Feyth and Serra.
Because venting a little online was a stepping stone to discussing things with my Husband.

There was also a bit of a shove from above. Thanks Thor. ><
I won't get into all that though. 'sides this post is looooong enough!

[Feythfull]

too bad I have to leave for work today I would have hung out with you.

I know how you feel some times I don't wanna tell people in my life about stuff I would rather tell online people.

[Wicked]

D'awww. We can hang another time. Have a good day at work, kay?
Anyway. Gonna go to bed actually. Jason set a trap. All snuggly. Half asleep and trying to keep me in there. So bed. But! I'm hoping to hold onto the happy after I wake up. He'll be at work and I'll be alll by myself. So I'll need it more then.

[Serra Britt]

Yea, I understand that some too Wicked. I hate putting stuff like that up on FB when there's not much people can do for me anyways. It does help to be able to vent of course, and when you worry about the repercussions it CAN be hard to tell people close too. I'm glad I could support you a little bit Wicked, and I really hope you feel okay later today still.

[Feythfull]

yes we will have to!

I like your mask/horn combo

[Wicked]

Thanks Feyth! I really like your avatar too. It's molten! Lava Goddess.

[Feythfull]

Phoenix but that works too lol lava goddess am I Hawaiian?

[Wicked]

My keyboard is mesed up so I won't be posting much tonight. I think something got spiled on it. I'm leaving in the typos to ilustrate what's it's doing. Anytime you would type two leters within sucesion it meses up.

It's also making a weird clicking sound every time you type a character.
Which, is new. It's never done that before. I'm going to take it apart... I've done that before so no wories BUT I realy don't think it wil fix everything.

[Feythfull]

Dx fix it! Fix it!

[Serra Britt]

Oh noes! Wicked need to fix her keyboard...or get a new one? :/

[Feythfull]

beat it into submission!

[Wicked]

I blame the cat who likes to sleep on the keyboard. He hit some combination of buttons that turned on some feature that I had to correct. Anyway that's not so much why I haven't been on. I'm trying to spend my late evenings with Jason. If I work a 3 to 11 shift - more than likely I won't be getting on here after work.

[Serra Britt]

That's good Wicked! If I had someone to spend time with in person I probably wouldn't be here as much either :p

[Feythfull]

you gotta teach the kitties young not to go on the computers

[Wicked]

Well.. Thumper (the kitty in question) is an old fart and set in his ways.
Can't use the water bottle so close to the computer either. So pick him up and plop him onto the floor.

[Serra Britt]

Eventually he'll get the hint? But most likely not, if I know cats at all XD