Annabelle sighed softly, her shaking hands running through her snowy white hair. She hoped she'd be released soon, like she did, every other day that she was stuck, cooped up inside this place. She wished to be free, to go home, and lye in her own bed, in her own room, in her own house. Go to her own university, and have her own family one day. But wishing wasn't exactly an act that got you anywhere. It gave you hope for something better while you sat in this place, maybe the lunch room, maybe your bed room, hearing nothing but the ticking clock, because every second you were in their felt like being caged in your own personal hell. She saw it two ways- her playing pretend made her stay here more enjoyable, she thought she may as well be happy if she's stuck here. But playing pretend, was also what got her another year. She didn't know if she'd ever look back and see it as something good. She regretted it every day, and knowing what she knew she still lined up and extended her stay with every lie told. But lying didn't make you insane, it just meant you were afraid of the truth. Annabelle knew that she could sit there and generalize for hours about what could be, and what could have been. But it wouldn't make her any less crazy. She shook her head a small smile on her lips as she glanced to her ward, she was done eating.
Annabelle wasn't part of the garden club it was true, but her orderly took her for walks all the time. Mainly because he himself knew what it was like to be in there for something that was harmless, that couldn't hurt anyone. "Ready to go outside kiddo?" she'd hear him say, like always. He called her kiddo, not because he was much older than she, but because he thought of her as a child. She was a compulsive liar playing pretend, just like a child. She remembered the day's where he'd tell her about what happened when he was in here, and they'd formulate their own definition of what her diagnostic was. They agreed that if that got you thrown in the ward, they should take every child with an imagination, and toss them in here too. Her ward made her feel better about being here, he had ever since her first day. Little did she know she'd soon be assigned to a new one.
She rose from her spot and sighed softly, setting her tray down she glanced to the window, staring outside as they headed for the music hall, they each grabbed a guitar, and headed towards the doors. They sat down resting in the shade of a willow tree, both mimicking one another, their legs crossed, guitars in their laps they looked one another over and laughed softly. The garden club was coming outside now, and they walked past them, everyone smiling and waving, some glaring as Annabelle and her ward played. He taught her how to play, because he didn't believe that being here meant you couldn't learn like a normal person.
"Everyone else is either asleep or having sex. I've been watching cable television and eating jello."
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower