[Ink Glitched]

It actually has been quite horrible the past week. I've been trying to get my mother to come to us, in which they believe you as a parent of your child should go to the grandparents, while on my husbands side as long as your able to visit both ways do it. Once you hit an age or is physically impossible to come, then its visiting them. I know its probably wrong to hold onto it, but lately it just feels as if I'm the worse person of the two of us (me and my sis) because I'm not in church like her, and have some different beliefs. My in-laws said, it was like I was being treated like a stepdaughter. Basically an unwanted stepdaughter. My husband can't grasp why my parents pick church over us (functions and service) every single time. I understand going to church every Sunday, but if it meant blocking out your family to be divine its a bit too much. Also mom always tells me its at the wrong time, when she does the same thing, and insists on us changing around our schedule. Plus she tends to guilt trip a lot and I end up feeling bad. Now i've come to the conclusion to not visit her for a long period of time. Even on her birthday she said she wanted to be alone (I won't say the reasons, its actually quite understandable) I went to respect that, then I find out my sister went against it, and yet again she is praised for not doing something so she can see her grandson, and I'm the underfoot because I didn't. I've managed to visit my mom quite often, in fact, It can't fit on two hands alone. My mom has visited at least five/six times. I just don't get how my sister who treated her like shit since that baby was born after my mom has helped her in everyway, and make me feel like the heel, despite the fact I visited her, and after all the crap she's done that made me feel not worth it.:(

[Serra Britt]

That sounds really rough :( I live far away from most of my family so I don't get to see them when I'd like, and as it is with me currently they have to visit me, as I cannot travel right now. I really hope things work out between you and your family, it sounds like you love them a lot despite all the problems, and it's maybe frustrating that they don't seem to care the same way about you. -hugs-

[Ink Glitched]

Thanks for the sypathy, its just frustrating to see them act as if they don't want joshua, then later they do, but want us to go to them. We are having as much money troubles when it comes to gas, and they choose when its hard for us to come. At least we rearranged things, it just feels like they don't want to put any effort. Even a zumba class that is free has more pull over us. -.-