[Randomology]

Look, I don't need remorse or sympathy or comfort, I just need to vent. Mother's Day sucked. I had finished a M day card for my grandmother and had gone over to her house. Everything seemed fine. Last I heard she was off oxygen...Oh let me explain first.

My grandmother chain smokes and got lung cancer awhile back as well as some disorder that makes it hard to receive oxygen thru breathing. After awhile she was taking these pills and had gotten off the oxygen and was breathing normal.

Anyways everything seemed fine. Then I noticed after having a conversation, that not only did she not read my card Fizzyology and I made for her (which is not normal) but she was disoriented, dizzy and having trouble comprehending what everyone was saying. My mom came over too with a M day goodie bag and noticed her lips, her face, her fingers even, were blue.

So she's back on oxygen, meaning her health is failing. The worse part is, when everyone left the patio where we were sitting to go find her oxy tank, she looked at me and said, "sweetheart, I'm gonna die soon."

...

So um..then I found out after a long day of interviews, which went great might I add, I got a call from my mother. Last night apparently grandma didn't get any oxygen from her breathing tube, turned up to max, collapsed and stopped breathing. She was rushed to the E.R. via ambulance and hasn't woken up since she passed out and currently has a breathing tube down her throat.

I'm mad, I'm upset, and I hate how no matter how many times I told her about those ****ing cigarettes, she wouldn't stop her G** D*MN SMOKING!! GYAH!

...SO..........yea, I'm..not happy. and I've been pretty damn low all day aside from what the misses did for me, bless her soul.
Okay, so I vented.

[Espy]

Espy isn't great at being sympathetic anyways. But, shit, that's sucks. It's good to vent that out...

Well, what can we do now but hope for the best, huh? Smile.

[Randomology]

Thanks. That seemed to help me smile a bit :)

[Chi]

I know how you feel about the not liking cigarettes.
One of my mom's best friends died from lung cancer that she got from cigarettes and my mom quit smoking for... six months?
She eventually started smoking again and I'm so afraid she'll get lung cancer now too.
On top of that she's a nurse. She knows how bad it is and she can't stop.
I'm sorry that happened to your grandmother. I hope she gets better any way possible.

[Randomology]

Thanks Chi, but she's just about at the end of the line as it is. God forbid she suffer life for too much longer. Though I love her with all of my being(not as much as God of course), I've come to terms with the shortness of her mortality at this point. It's weird, it's like her passing away would break my heart and fill me with relief at the same time. I just wish it wouldn't end like this. T_T...

[Chi]

Then I hope that her passing is painless.
That's the only thing you can really do for her is hope.
That's really unfortunate for you. :/

[Misericorde]

I can honestly say I know exactly where you're coming from. My mom found out she had lung cancer in August and she refused to quit smoking. She went as far as hiding tons of packs every where in the house. She passed away in November, and when my father and I cleared out her home, we found 5 stashed packs of cigarettes. All I can say is, look at it from her point of view... She has lung cancer, which really limits her. Smoking is about the only fun/joyful thing she has left to do to be happy about. If it makes her happy, best not to harp her about it and this point in time. Her mortality won't change even if she did stop... I learned that the hard way with my mom.

[Randomology]

I told you I'm not looking for advice. I've already decided what I'm going to do about this crap and I don't need outside relations. Sorry to be rude, but..just dealing with shit.

[Misericorde]

I wasn't giving advice, I was giving my opinion. If that sounded like advice, well then... -Shrugs.- I don't know. But good luck dealing with this either way. :/

[Batty]

I wasn't even around for Mothers Day, for my mom. I was on a spiritual retreat, camping.

She was pissed off at me till Wednesday, which, TECHNICALLY was mothers day anyway. Ya know, since its always the 11th? Anyway.. I made shiz up to her, cooked all day, cleaned all day. etc etc. So, while Sunday itself sucked for me [I hate upsetting my mom] Wednesday made up for it.