[littl3chocobo]

a few weeks ago someone i was fond of began talking to me less and less. i did not know why and did not ask figuring it was something small. after a bit our communications were limited to say the least and i figured it was something i had done and started to get paranoid, eventually someone told me it was an irl issue and i tried to let it go, i attempted to keep the conversations alive and let the rp we were in go into hiatus. soon after they stopped talking to me and so i sent a single entry offering to help with this thing that was taking them away, it was ignored. for two days i watched them post a storm in the rp forums and sometimes in other places too. it got to the point where clicking the refresh button actually put me in tears. two days after my last message i wrote an unpleasant pm stating how i felt and got a reply telling me i was selfish for feeling that way.

my problem is even after a week i still randomly burst into tears and get a stomachache when i see them post, i want to say i am sorry and hope they will be my friend again but doing that would mean accepting that i am in the wrong for having put my feelings before their convenience. i don't know what to do, should i eat my anger and hurt and go back to being mostly ignored or continue as is and /still/ be ignored only with the last shreds of my dignity still attached?


we were not super close or anything, i mean we were not even close enough for them to tell me there was a problem or for me to have the sense to ask /why/ they were distant but i still considered them my friend and i still want to /be/ friends with them

what should i do?