[littl3chocobo]

but livinbg without her almost got me killed several times, lost me two jobs, had me cy every day for two years(up until the last couple weeks) sometimes multiple times aday, and made me hate my very existance on the days i was cognitive enough to think about it, food money, clothes, music, and art all lost it's appeal, i stopped reading most fanfiction, i receeded into myself and even after gaining her back i still have none of the love i so freely gave before

it was like having my mind wrapped in cotton batting and periodically having my fingernails removed at the cuticle, i had no enthusiasm for life and no self preservation