[littl3chocobo]

i was sitting here at my desk reading fanfiction, a pastime that is literaly as old as my usage of the internet outside of mandatory class usage(i accidentally stumbled over it my first week in while looking for a book) when i came to a dirty part, now i always skip the porn and near-porn i stumble over but it has always been as much to avoid my parents' questions as much as to just not have to read about the largest 'melenium rod' the authoresss could come up with

the long and short of it is i was skipping over this section of text when i got paraniod my parents would come into my open room and see it. i have not lived in my parents' house in 6 months, it did not occure to me that i /still/ don't get that i live in my own house almost an hour away or at the very least i'd be able to hear them pck the lock on the front door

this bothers me greatly, i know i am not a complete idiot, hell i know more about more things than a lot of people /especialy/ the weird mental and habitual barriors and blocks the mind makes up to defend itself and prevent the over burdoning of it with ever changing information, how can i be so terribly blind to something i not only know but /understand/ as well?



anyway i needed to turn on my comp and vent even if it isn't to my mindless followers and standard assorted strangers