[trystan830]

so hubby wakes up from the couch about 11. i said something about still sleeping off his cough, since he's on the tail end of getting rid of a cold (and a pesky cough). he snarkily comments something about catching up on his sleep, so he's not sleep deprived (or something like that.... and i'm pretty sure this is a dig at me, since i go to bed later than him and i guess he thinks i'm sleep-deprived too?)

so he goes and gets ready for bed, and then (grudgingly) comes over to where i was sitting at my computer and kisses me good night. i say 'love you,' and while he says it back, there's something in his voice that i'm like 'that's not his usual voice.'

after a few moments, i go back in the bedroom and ask if he's all right, he says he is in a tone that says he's clearly not. i let him know i'm here if he needs to talk to me, and he again says he's fine in a snappish kinda tone. so i concede, saying 'okay' as i leave the room.

i go back to my computer, put away the crochet project i had out to work on, finish up online, do my bedtime stuffs (take a quick phone call from my mom) and i'm back in the bedroom by 11:30. he's already asleep, but i wake him up, and definitely let him know i'm in bed now. and somewhere in there, i end up asking him if he's good now, and he says he's good.

so when i go to turn the lights out, we do our usual goodnights - i say 'love you' and he says 'love you too' - and this time there's no funny undertones, just him sleepy and about to fall back asleep again.

but now i wonder - is he going to expect me to go to bed at the same time as him or shortly after him every night? i don't know if that will actually every night....and after an undetermined time (1? 2? 10? nights) will he get weird again a tme?

he's been sleeping a lot, yes to get over the cold, but he's 'lost' two big things a few months ago (his go-karting, and someone he thought of as a son - the kid was doing the teenager thing, and essentially they 'broke up.' another long story.)). i'm wondering if i want to mention that this could be a precursor to something else? (like depression maybe?) but he's a guy. he doesn't really like to talk about it (even though he knows i'm there for him), and he definitely doesn't like when it comes up more than once. *sigh*

sorry that was long....