[littl3chocobo]

dude, my beloved said they hated me and never wanted to see me again. for two years i held a flame while believing their words were all my fault, i loved them as much during that time as i did the week before i was told off and if they would have said 'die' i would have died for them, when they came back i did not dwell on my unhappiness because in them coming back there was no more unhappiness, i gave them a place to live away from their abusive family and supported them fully, moved across town to a house i could not afford, gave them my vehicle and did not get upset when they trashed it, got a speeding ticket so they would not have to be alone. i have bent over backwards for them every time i could even though i was cheated and mistreated abused insulted and screwed over because every time they smile i am in heaven and every moment is worth it because there is no way to even the balance for that sweet laugh, that kind touch, that rare easy smile

for the last five years i have felt like this person is worth more in a moment than i could repay in my life and i feel no less in love with them now then when we were younger and i was in the blossom of my first love even though as far as they are concerned we are 'just friends' who a long time ago were close and not so long ago were roommates

i would die for them, i would suffer for them, i would kill for them if that is what it took to make them happy and i would do it with no regret


also i can't answer your 'why' question because my answer is 'because it is k' which is no answer at all but i hope the rest is satisfactory