[Xun]

Wow, that's just. Wow.

For one, instead of remembering the past, use the past as a guide to tell you what to do and what-not to do. It's very helpful.

Two, don't assume people dislike talking to you because you're pushing yourself to talk to them. Sometimes, people need that extra person to look up to that talks a little too much for their own taste.

I don't know how old you are, but you shouldn't put yourself down because your parents say, "Oh, you can't hang out with your friends unless you're at school and stuff." Take those opportunities and hang out with your friends as if its the last day on earth because you have no idea if you'll ever survive the next day.

Also-- people, even on the online side, are pretty cruel. You're very fortunate to jump into this website and listen to people who're giving you advice or saying hello and stuff. Unless you can find a way to muster your strength and be able to take any negative things and brush it aside, I honestly can't say for sure how you'd fair in the rest of the internet.

I don't want to come off as "evil, mean, etc." so I'll leave you with this: Regardless of how the world's like, continue living your day-to-day life, knowing you'll be better. And even though you're alone, you know you have people backing you up. If there's one thing I learned, its this: There's at least ONE person in the world who cares about you. Whether or not you meet with this person is your choice. They'll care about you, even if you don't know them.

Sounds strange, I know, but its true. That person may be under your nose without you knowing it.