[Mizeria]

oh no, I hadn't even started drinking yet. but I got home and i was fucking smashed. for the first time ever... and it was well.. something.
xD

I'm pretty much an every drunk from what my friends said. screaming, crying, laughing, hitting things... i spoke more coherent tho..

Tony seems like an awesome guy. thats not the issue...
because of some family history... I don't go to bars for a reason. I'm not around large groups of drunk people for a reason.
I drink, for the most part, alone... for a reason.

and now he says, "hey ash, you said you;d never been to a bar? I'ma gonna take you to one... one of these days. Just cause it would be fun."

but he doesn't know a lot about me..
so I'm not sure if he would understand...

I know a couple people that like to drink... but I'd like one that would stay sober... just cause I don't trust myself all the time...

I can't party to hard cause of work...
annd I'm an only child.
so my dark days are pretty freakin dark.

I get by. doing what I have to.
and then its just one day at a time.
ya kno?