[littl3chocobo]

well sweetie, i only know of two ways to attempt fixing it in a suicide free way, the first is talking with those who know you and can theoretically help which you are not interested in doing, and throwing yoursef into something creative that can be given to others, personally i draw, i draw lots. it is something i can give away when i feel bad and it makes people happy, you could take up a creative outlet and do that, through the full weight of your existence into it and bleed for that, it takes away from you and it is in theory productive