[Kory]

This coronavirus has really gotten my anxiety waaaay waaaaaaaay up there!

It's freaking me out so much,
I know that it's not super dangerous or anything... but the guilt is making me feel terrible. My stomach is hurting all the time, my anxiety makes me feel near-constant pain, been very sweaty and too scared to talk to my friends.

Since the break up , my ex has gotten into researching schizophrenia... I guess he wanted me to know that he's been working on trying to understand me and what I experience day-to-day...
He also just had surgery and I'm just... I dunno. My tummy is really nervous lately. He could have died. It messes with my .. thoughts? My brain? I don't know!

[Coda]

Originally Posted by Ava

This coronavirus has really gotten my anxiety waaaay waaaaaaaay up there!

It's freaking me out so much,
I know that it's not super dangerous or anything... but the guilt is making me feel terrible. My stomach is hurting all the time, my anxiety makes me feel near-constant pain, been very sweaty and too scared to talk to my friends.

Since the break up , my ex has gotten into researching schizophrenia... I guess he wanted me to know that he's been working on trying to understand me and what I experience day-to-day...
He also just had surgery and I'm just... I dunno. My tummy is really nervous lately. He could have died. It messes with my .. thoughts? My brain? I don't know!

All the hugs, friend! All the hugs.

Anxiety at a time like this is entirely understandable. I can tell you all of the reassuring things, like how the virus requires damp conditions so cases should drop over the summer, or how you're young and basically healthy and following all of the safety advice.

But I know that those don't do anything about that visceral fear deep down. So I'll just say this: You're not alone in feeling like this. You're going to be okay. You're doing everything right, and you're not wrong to feel worried, so try not to let it get to you.

[Stabbsworth]

yeah.

i'm personally kinda worried about my dad and the shop, if that makes you feel any better.

[Kory]

Originally Posted by Coda

All the hugs, friend! All the hugs.

Anxiety at a time like this is entirely understandable. I can tell you all of the reassuring things, like how the virus requires damp conditions so cases should drop over the summer, or how you're young and basically healthy and following all of the safety advice.

But I know that those don't do anything about that visceral fear deep down. So I'll just say this: You're not alone in feeling like this. You're going to be okay. You're doing everything right, and you're not wrong to feel worried, so try not to let it get to you.

Thanks, Coda.

I've been doing what I can to avoid triggers and trying to keep my anxiety down.

I really hope that this whole thing blows over sooner than later. :(

Originally Posted by Voidbarker

yeah.

i'm personally kinda worried about my dad and the shop, if that makes you feel any better.

Is your dad still living rotting things around? D:
That would make me very worried as well

[Merskelly Metalien]

My grandma is 90% gone now. -_-;
I have no idea how to feel about it...
The funny, nosy, sweethearted lady I once knew is know a mumbling 3 year old in an 80 year old's body.
<:/ With a slowly diminishing attention span and memory. I feel so bad feeling sorry that she has to continue living like this...

[Death by Mirrors]

If it's of any solace, at this point she probably isn't aware that her brain is acting weird. As in, she forgets and "unlearns" things, but also forgets that she's forgetting them. So in a strange way it's a more peaceful state of being for her than in the beginning while she still realizes her mind deteriorates.

(Of course it's still tough to see a person you once loved more or less vanish before your eyes. My grandpa was like that a few months before his death... *hugs*)

[Stabbsworth]

Originally Posted by Ava

Is your dad still leaving rotting things around? D:
That would make me very worried as well

thankfully not, because health and safety inspection comes around at this time of year.

[Kaderin Triste]

Welp, the rest of my shifts at Joann this week were canceled because of the store's decreased hours and needing to cut back on labor.
Bye $60 I need for bills and/or groceries! I needed you, but whatever!

[Coda]

Had to take a dramatic salary cut due to the travel ban. I'm... hoping that I can work something out before I run out of savings.

[Stabbsworth]

tfw you're wildly jealous of someone for being in a relationship, and you recognize that it's due to your own issues w/ relationships.

fucking hell, i hate being self-aware.

also how much of my adhd / autism symptoms are due to just being a teenager.

[Coda]

Originally Posted by Voidbarker

also how much of my adhd / autism symptoms are due to just being a teenager.

Having a child that's almost a teenager, I've been realizing that too...

[Kory]

Originally Posted by Voidbarker

also how much of my adhd / autism symptoms are due to just being a teenager.

I think that's often why some things don't get diagnosed until after a certain age. But that's just things like personality disorders like BPD and such... At least, that's what I understood when I was in treatment as a teen.

:(

Daily Awful;

I received a spam message on my facebook page...
It seemed almost like an actual person posting because it felt very personalized , but it made absolutely no sense.
I'm trying hard to convince myself that it was just spam, likely someone's page was hacked and they sent out these messages to people in hopes of getting them to click or react...

I'm trying so hard to tell myself it's not a personal message... no one is reading my thoughts or attempting to get information out of me. I'm trying hard to tell myself that it was just a random spam message...

But I'm feeling so terribly spooked right now, my stomach is turning and making em feel nauseous and I don't feel safe anymore.

But what to do? All I can do is keep trying to distract myself from it I guess and try to tell myself there's no hidden motives, there's no conspiracy against me...

I try telling myself this, but I have a hard hard time believing it.

[Merskelly Metalien]

;-; I want to cry.
And I don't know why.
But I feel like...very cold in the heart and I don't know why.

</3 I think it's because maybe my past hurt has been on my mind lately for some reason. I'm so familiar with this odd feeling of isolation. It's the kind I used to feel when I came home from classes and thought about the people in my class who talked to me, and made friends with other people. While I returned to my cave of solitude...and thought day after day, that I was too damaged and mistrustful to ever be friends with. While also hiding my loneliness with smiles and coping with jokes...

;n; also I really miss vanilla ice cream...I could always find comfort in vanilla ice cream. </3

[Stabbsworth]

spoilered for. stuff. i'm not sure what stuff it is, but it's probably me yelling about something.

apparently telling people not to draw a nude ten year old (even if it's a faun) is enough to get several people in my tumblr inbox.

it's almost like this can be used to groom kids.

oh, and i've had a galaxy brain take from one anon. apparently i'm sexualizing the ten year old by realizing that a 20 y/0 drawing a nude ten year old is fucked up.

i genuinely regret being into Don't Starve at this point!

[daikokunyo]

awful, awful essay. awful homework. awful weekly writeups. four of them.

[Stabbsworth]

period started today.

the whole vegetables thing isn't exactly panning out, but it's finicky and ik my tastes will change a bit when i'm older, hopefully, i'm still not keen on veg.