[bluebird]

Sue.

another new daily awful:

internalizing it

[littl3chocobo]

my gripe is silly but i suppose sharing it could be cathartic?

i thought i was ok with an ex friend giving me the cold shoulder after a couple months of chilly ghosting but i recently have been seeing them around through my own stupidity(i hadn't even thought about it at the time) and now i have to deal with my brain wanting to do the wrong thing and ask them why they dislike my company so much and how i can fix things when i ought to just continue respecting their original wish to break things off. i did not even know i was still so childish

[Francisco]

IDK if I'm being treated poorly by these people or if my expectations are too high. Either way, feels bad.

[Stabbsworth]

auuughghghh itchy eyeballs.

[Merskelly Metalien]

;n; I can feel my cycle approaching me once again. </3
It's not nice feeling random cramps...</3
It's not nice feeling legs hurt...</3
Uterus, can we not? Please? Just...nooo, pleaaase. TT~TT </3

[DreadedMartian]

[Stabbsworth]

eyeballs are still a bit itchy. probably dry eye or eyestrain.

[Merskelly Metalien]

;_; Well, it's not as bad as before, but my period still sucks.
And cramps are still completely unnecessary and terrible. </3

[bluebird]

gut feeling of impending doom

[Espy]

what the FUCK, brain, lay off a bit

[bluebird]

making an excel sheet for event items.......

[Coda]

Excel sheets... story of my week. x.x

This week has sucked. I've worked late every day because SOMETHING has been broken. I've spent so much time in meetings that I got laryngitis. (Not bad enough to lose my voice, but bad enough to hurt.) I even had to spend some time responding to issues today.

I'm tired and sore and cranky.

[Stabbsworth]

vaguely wanting to not exist.

before anyone asks, yes, i'm aware that it's a bad ideation. i can't do anything about it because therapy costs, even in the UK.

[Espy]

Oh gods. Pain. So much fucking pain.

Also yeah, been there, done that (wrt shitty ideation). My psychiatrist thought it was suicide ideation and I was like “nah I just need to take a very, very long break from existing”.

[Francisco]

Desperately trying to shake the paranoia. It's not going well.

[bluebird]

:( sending good energies to all of you.

deadline to order a cap and gown is approaching,,,idk if should buy or attend the commencement ceremony at all. thing is like 2-3 months of my electricity bill and it's only going to be worn once. if it's on credit, it's gonna lump with my other expenses and cOmPoUnD interest is going to snowball off of that. provost giving me one last fork before i go haha i'm cryin how mad will my fam be if they found out i'm sitting out. the real important part, the diploma, is going to be mailed anyway.