[Stabbsworth]

self-diagnosing is a worthy tool that probably ought to be done if you're completely unable to get to a therapist or a doctor. the worst that'll happen is that you're wrong.

hell, i think the ASAN (Autism Self-Advocacy Network) is fine with it.

personally, i say that i have *symptoms* of [x]. it makes a bit more sense than just outright telling someone that you're self-diagnosed, and it. lessens the chances of being attacked for it, methinks.

[Stabbsworth]

actual daily awful: two of my friends got into a fight. like, drawing one character w/ crystals on the same side of the face isn't exactly... worthy of publically calling someone a bloody siphon, as well as being passive-aggressive towards them. the guy that did that did apologize but i'm still iffy bc he's isolating himself from both online friends and irl friends, and it's frustrating getting a hold of him.

[Kaderin Triste]

Can I just sleep forever and live in my dreams? They're far more interesting than the endless tedium of my real life.

[Merskelly Metalien]

Originally Posted by Kaderin Triste

I would totally watch it with you!
Kinda regretting deleting netflix from my phone because it limits what i can watch quite a bit...

;u; I'm glad someone would. Thanks Kaderin. <3


Actual Awful:

My grandma now has reverted into an infantile state of being, as now she cannot do anything for herself except to murmur, shout, and try to communicate her needs. <x/ She slept nearly all day yesterday, wasn't eating or drinking much, and didn't move from her bed. <:/ She just can't sit herself up, let alone drink or eat anything on her own. Her memory's gotten worse since she can't seem to remember where she is or who we are anymore...

<-<; She was also awake all night talking to people in her memory that weren't there, and was delusional all throughout. Saying stuff like, "Tommie, don't smoke in the house!"
"So what did you do today? What dress-how you-mbe...Stana, did you have fun?"
and
"Never, no. Don't-...can I help you? Oh-!...Blssp..can tell me. Uh yi yi." It was a horrible way to see her. <->; And she actually woke me up by randomly shouting, "Hey! What did I say? You-Ruby, no. Go change, that skirt is too short!" <x] Which was kinda funny, but she also let out a bunch of laughs and groans that sounded more like they came from a demented old lady than my grandma. <8[ Which was sad.

<:c The Nani I knew is gone now. <:[ In her place is a quickly deteriorating, helpless, shell of a lady, and it hurts to just think of how much more worse it can get. <_>; She vomited up her mucus last night, had to help change her and the bedsheets. She was hallucinating as I was watching her, and that was kinda hard to deal with. <:c I kept her calm and answered her back and made sure she was alright, but I was scared she might forget to breathe...and she kept staring at me as if she didn't know me, which she probably doesn't anymore.

=~- Needless to say, being up at night from 1 to 4 am took it's toll, but I got to rest at least while my mom watched her until she slept again. <->; Is it bad to sort of want her death to happen soon, just to end her pain and worries? Or is it just my own wishful thinking, so I don't have to see her like this?...I don't know.

But I woke up hungry, went back to sleep, T-T and woke up later on to my mom putting on her church's sunday mass on the TV. I guess she needs it, now that her mom is pretty much dying, and I get it. It's for her to find her peace and cope with her pain in seeing her last parent on the way out of the doors of life. <Bc But for me, I realized I'm not gonna get any more sleep today, so I got up, and made myself some oatmeal. =_= Because it feels like an oatmeal day. I just wanna get out of the house today. I don't wanna be here, but there's not many places I can really go to relax. <B/ So maybe I'll pick my brother's brain for ideas.

Speaking of which, our birthdays this year are probably going to suck... >-=; For me, possibly more than last year's birthday, when I was really sick and in pain. >->; I also have a doctor appointment tomorrow, but I'm not sure if they'll ask me to leave, as most medical appointments are now canceled unless it's urgent...

[Kaderin Triste]

I'm about 99% sure that my packages that were delivered today were stolen.
And I don't care too much about the one, it was just some silly toys and things (mainly some lost kitties to maybe help fill in my collection more), but the other one was my Holo Taco unicorn skin collection. The full collection with the limited edition collection box. And I'm pissed about that one.
But there's also a 1% chance that they may have been placed in the package section of the mailboxes, though that's usually only accessible to the post office, so is not super likely unless they made it accessible to all delivery people for...idk...safer delivery?

[Stabbsworth]

alright, well, we're now on lockdown in the UK. it's a soft-lockdown, people can still go out, but now we've got policemen on the streets. bro thinks they're gonna abuse that power to give you fines. which. is probably going to fucking happen, esp disproportionately to black people and chinese / asian people.

[Kaderin Triste]

Yep. They stole my fucking packages. The only good things in this world are cats and Derpy. People are awful and I hate everyone.

[KittyBeary]

Am kinda sad cause conventions I planned to attend this year will likely get cancelled. ;_;

[Sunako]

Hmm my daily awful is I got stung $1,475 for photos of my child. Its only 6 photos, and they charge that much. I could choose to cancel completely but thats $150 cancellation fee. Grr so annoying.

Some states are in lockdown starting tomorrow. Non essentials places will be closed.

[Kaderin Triste]

...aaaand then I broke my longest nail. But if I can make it through 2 more hours at work, I may be able to shorten, repair and save it.

[Sunako]

Daily awful was I got so drained and fell asleep for a few hours. Also, my new real estate hasnt called my back yet. They claim we have paid rent up til 30th march 2020, but we are actually paid up to 4th April 2020.

[Merskelly Metalien]

;U; I'm jealous. I'm jealous of my brother. Because he has friends. He has a squad. And I don't have friends. I have squat. <x'] But it's funny because even though we're isolated in our home, he's spending time with his friends while I just leech off spending time with either him or my mom. ;u; both of which are family...not friends.

[Stabbsworth]

daily fucking awful: so my YTer brother ended up getting rid of his kittens. i'm just sitting here, because, like. pretty sure those kitties costed 450$. per kitten.

are they fucking high. are they. because i'm just sitting here, with three cats, one of which we've raised since he was a kitten, and how the FUCK do they still have the ability to get yet another pet?

this is why we should have licenses for animals.

fucking gits. you don't get rid of a fucking pet just because the novelty's worn off, you utter cockwaffles!!

[Witchchylde]

Originally Posted by Kaderin Triste

Yep. They stole my fucking packages. The only good things in this world are cats and Derpy. People are awful and I hate everyone.

Really glad my insulin delivery didn't get stolen yesterday, left under the mailbox at the bottom of the hill as it was. Couldn't have been down there more than an hour anyway. Guess that's one nice thing about living so far out of town.

And yet the store shelves are too empty of necessities, and even SPAM is out of stock here.

[Sunako]

All I feel like doing is sleeping lately, my waking moments are filled with too much stress. And my headaches are getting stronger too.

[Coda]

Originally Posted by Voidbarker

daily fucking awful: so my YTer brother ended up getting rid of his kittens. i'm just sitting here, because, like. pretty sure those kitties costed 450$. per kitten.

are they fucking high. are they. because i'm just sitting here, with three cats, one of which we've raised since he was a kitten, and how the FUCK do they still have the ability to get yet another pet?

this is why we should have licenses for animals.

fucking gits. you don't get rid of a fucking pet just because the novelty's worn off, you utter cockwaffles!!

Better to give them away to people who want them than to neglect them or worse.