[Merskelly Metalien]

Me @ that weird moment during your period where you have cramping that hurts less than the pain of your past mistakes, abject incapability, and overall depressive feeling that maybe you don't matter to anyone as much as you think you might...

Honestly probably just the PMS, but feeling really alone and helpless about my future in finding a job, getting my school to f*cking care about my financial aid situation, and avoiding school because I have absolutely no more drive left in me to learn anything anymore...also scared that when things start to look up and get better, I might feel VERY disappointed in myself suddenly and start to harm myself again. <:/ *shrug* but eh..weird day. Feel like I accomplished a lot, but I'm the only one who knows it and acknowledges it. <n<; Yet I am still unsure of myself if I really accomplished anything at all...