[Merskelly Metalien]

>-> I'm already feelin' at odds with my family, and woke up with the depressed feeling that I won't ever get to decorate anything or dress up, or do anything this year..
or celebrate much at all..
.which is what I usually always look forward to doing but, when it comes..it just goes. :/ It's all so sudden and sad..I almost don't wanna celebrate holidays now. >n>; But maybe my family will make me bake stuff and just leave the tree out and naked for me to deck it out..idk. Might just visit my dad in the mountains, just to breathe and get to decorate. :[ As it is, I just feel trapped n' sad down here rn..(again)