[Kory]

It's been a hot minute since I've been actively suicidal...

I understand how that feels, though.
It's a very very sh*tty feeling, indeed.
Likely I wouldn't even be here today if there weren't kind people in the world...
(Or if I hadn't been hospitalized)

I've been feeling that way a bit too, but not really like, "I wish I was dead", more like, "I don't know if I can keep on living like this".

For what it's worth, you've been very kind to me, Panda.
Kinder than most. I would be devastated if you died. I know it probably isn't that reassuring, but it's true.
<3 Take care of yourself