Thank you Ava. <3
Truly.
I try not to let it get in the way of my daily life, but the fact is it's really kinda f*cked me up...and I can't do things other people can, with my shattered mindset and self-confidence. I mean, <:c I was abused. Mentally and physically. At such a naive age, by someone I trusted with my life. Someone I genuinely had fun with, and wanted to make smile..it's hard to still come to terms with that...
And as a result I feel like I just can't trust anyone anymore, so I keep to myself and internelize my emotional pain. Probably a big factor in my mental health. I can't even handle a light scolding anymore tbh. ^~^; I just take it way too personally and end up crying.
I felt like I was so alone though...without anyone to talk to about it, for years. <:c I knew there were people abused like me out there too. But I always assumed they have had it worse than me, and that I was just sensitive.
I'm glad at least I found the courage to share with you Ava, because I see the same sort of suffering in you I had in myself. <:( I couldn't just keep it to myself, (even though it's something personally scarring and I keep behind the curtain) not when it might help you and others who've been through or are going through the same thing...
It's going to be difficult. Probably the hardest thing in the world for me, was to continue my days like nothing was wrong, when inside, I felt like just running far away, never to return. If it's not easy to end a normal friendship, it's 10 times harder to end an abusive one. <-> I understand being hesitant to come back here Ava, it's okay. <u> So was I..
I just hope you stay safe, and that maybe a little bit from me helped you a little bit too.
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