[Kali_Namir]

Dear Me...

CHILL OUT!!!...This time next week you'll be home and enjoying the company of the most adorably sweet guy ever. I know right now the family is starting to fall apart thanks to your sister hitting that rebellious almost 18 stage, but that is no reason to go back to that horrid dark place. You have people who care and will help you through it. As for your sister, she can go do whatever she wants, it doesn't involve you so there...

Sincerely,
The one who just wants to be around her friends...


Hey You!,

Calm down...calm down...I know it's hard right now and your stupid phobia of being alone is starting to get to you, but really...calm down...
I know right now you're feeling very much alone, if only because in all physicality you really are alone. I know it's hard to remember what not being alone feels like right now, but that's just because the phobia is kicking in. I know you think it's not fair that it seems as though everyone else gets to be happy on New Years and you're probably gonna be stuck with your family, absolutely miserable, having to put on a happy face, and wishing you were somewhere else. I also know though that if he could you'd be there with him, but he can't deal with it...this time next week you'll be home and all will be right in your head. But I know it's really hard right now because you can't help but feel alone and lost and upset. I know it's hard to watch your family fall apart from the inside and I know it feels like the end of the world that nothing is as it used to be. I know that used to, you could go to your house and actually feel as though it were home, but not anymore. Now it feels more a prison that keeps you from the things that make you truly happy, and the people that really care. I know it's hard to know that the one place that feels like Home is 3 hours to the west and the one person that can always make you smile is 2 hours to the southeast and not being able to see either of them. I know this is gonna be the hardest week for you simply because you only have one week before you are truly happy and smiling again. I also know this week is gonna be hard thanks to your sister deciding it was time she rebelled and questioned all authority. I know this is the worst time to have a break down, when no one is around or available to help walk you through it and keep you from doing something stupid, but you mustn't. You must be strong and hope that simply writing this all out to yourself and then posting it to get it out with help. You must be strong and know that it would upset him to know that you allowed him to believe you were okay only to do something you'll regret later. So don't do it, don't seek what you want to seek right now. Simply find something to keep your mind off your loneliness.
Stay calm and think positive. Be strong and enjoy the peace.

Sincerely,
The voice inside your head...