[MuseSick]

@Darling: That's the funny thing about my situation, is that when people ask me for advice, I tell them the cold, hard, truth. I tell them exactly what they should do, and give them options on what to do, telling my friends to do the points and list system was one of my favorites. But then when I turn around, I can never help myself. I think that's why I preferred helping people, because I could ignore my problems for the sake of theirs. Him and I have the same kind of past, with the abuse, and the father thing. So I think my favorite thing to keep him around for is, to help him, to practice my psychological standing, I feel bad saying it, but I use him for entertainment, and to practice. But I'm starting to wonder if it's worth it. Today was kind of the tip of the ice berg in a way. He told me he was too busy to talk to me, but he's online, on MSN, on facebook, talking to everyone else. So- that was my (for lack of better words, I apologize for being vulgar D:) "Fuck you" kind of moment. I'm done talking to him for now, but something about him always draws me back.

@Yoku, we ended up talking again, no problem, but today yet again, and he did something between what happened then and now, that almost makes me not forgive him.
I think it's getting easier, the more he screws up, the easier I find it to tell him goodbye. I think if he screws up a couple more times, I'll be done with him.