Question Answered. Feel free to um...read if you feel like I guess.
IMPORTANT NOTE: I do not believe homosexuality is a sin! I seem to have confused people on what I need perspective on. I am at peace with God. But my parents still believe it is a sin. Therefore what I wanted help with is if the paper I printed out is a good one to give to my mother. Who is by the way a straight, conservative, headstrong woman who has known many gay people. I've met a few of them. I'm trying to get her to see my point of view (although agreeing is another thing altogether) and using the said paper to move through this phase of Loving me but never accepting me.
APOLOGY: Sorry it got long! D: I probably won't get any help from y'all now. u_u;;
Sooooo I figured the title would get everyone's attention to what my problem is. Truthfully I'm not gay but bisexual...just my tendency for guys is strong so finding a girl is...ANYWAY not entirely why I need your help! You can skip the story part. It's just to fill you in on details that may not entirely matter. All you need to know is that I am still a follower of Christ and I believe the bible does not condone homosexuality as we know it. This is what I need to tell my mom and I'm debating on the how.
Story
So my mom already knows about me. And so does my dad and step-father. None of them are cool with this. But have remained loving and are trying to stay faithful to the Lord. They will test me for being true to my faith as well since my sexuality tests them. I faltered to make clear that I'm still faithful and what I believe regarding God and homosexuality. Everything became muddled in emotion and stereotypes surrounding all thing homosexual, as well as what my mom has heard and seen about them from personal experience. Like "oh it's okay God will still love us!" She is right that is NOT AN OKAY EXCUSE. It made me angry but I was too emotional at the time to speak properly. If that excuse was okay with me. The soulforce link you'll be seeing soon was a glimmer of hope for me. But I couldn't just accept what that man was writing. I spent another month researching, reading both sides of the argument, reading the bible, and praying. Since coming out to my mother I've promised to review the argument of homosexuality to try and refute it (because I cannot spiritually accept something without logically accepting it first) and what I believe makes perfect sense [to me].
What I'm thinking of Doing
So I printed out the soulforce information I stumbled upon month's when I finally decided to face my fear of God's wrath and read closely into his word on homosexuality. It was horrific really. Anyways since it was part of my first step to discovering this hope and developing a healthy fear of the Lord again it felt appropriate to print it out. What I'm planning to do with it is sit down, and have a talk with my mother about the situation. In my head it goes something like this:
"I wanted to refute the homosexual argument but my I feel what I think is right. And I want to explain to you what I think. I DO believe in God and plan to follow him as a faithful Christian. Mom please read this. NO this does not say my whole entire opinion. When I couldn't take the fear anymore I found this online. It wasn't enough for me then to believe God could accept me either if I acted on my desires. So I did everything I could to learn more. Including praying and reading the bible. I want your acceptance. But I encourage you to argue with all his points. Do your own research on this point of view. I don't necessarily believe every evidence some sources will point out but I have come to my conclusion through research. I only ask you do the same. Then after some time- I want to have another discussion on the topic. But I still want to be here for you. Let's do it together?"
Okay long winded and I probably won't get so much out so I gotta rehearse a little on what I want to say before my emotions rob me of my voice.
My Request
Is
This Resource okay to give to a straight person? How would one take it? Particularly one of strong Christian faith and convictions? Any thoughts and opinions you wish to share? PLEASE share.