[Serra Britt]

I seem to be a very needy person. Emotionally, physically, AND mentally at times. Lately this aspect of myself has been appearing more and since I sort of feel like I shouldn't be THIS needy it's been making me rather depressed.

Some of you know, probably easily from my signature, that my heart more or less belongs to Lunaryon. Luna is in college and is busy, and I understand this. Or at least, my mind understands it. My heart keeps telling me we need to spend more time together. I don't think it's necessary, because I care for Luna a great deal and think that we could have a very long relationship. So when I get overly needy, it makes me upset that I can't be more patient. Besides, if we will be together, shouldn't waiting just make it better?

Lately I do feel very impatient. Like I want everything to happen NOW. Again, it's like I know this is silly, but I feel like it anyways. As much as I tell myself I need to wait and be patient, it's like I have a little voice inside me telling me that I need particular things to be happy. It just...makes me very upset to be this emotionally needy. Not to mention the physical and mental neediness that follows.

This does happen more ever four weeks and it IS that time for me right now. Knowing it just makes me more depressed that I can't get out of it myself. Perhaps it's funny that despite my neediness, I'm afraid to ask for help sometimes. So I'm trying to do that now. If there's others who feel this way, what do you do to get out of it? Or how do you deal with it when it comes?