[Rosekitten]

He listened to him though he never said a word as Mizuki spoke, sure that was good news but the words that he seemed more focused on was the fact that it was gone. Was it really.. He never thought about it till Mizuki said something about it. He started to say something when he heard Mizuki walk away but stopped himself.

After a few moments he turned and started to walk after Mizuki, though this quickly died as it turned into a run as he finally caught up to him and grabbed his shoulder forcing him to turn around. His ears were down and he half looked like he was about to break down on the spot though he avoided eye contact with Mizuki, he feared the expression the face could give.

"it's still there. you know it is.. you know damn well I never stopped worrying if you were alive or if you were laying somewhere bleeding out as you drew upon your last breath." He seemed to stop a moment as he put his hands on Mizuki's shoulder's "I'm sorry, I don't express myself well, even though I was trying to work on it I couldn't keep the act up while you were gone, it hurt too much knowing that the worse could have happened and that my trying was for nothing because the one person I wanted at my side more then anything in this world might never come back."

Sure he had grown cold over the year but that could be changed again right.. even if it couldn't would that mean that he really did lose everything important to him. "I don't care about the troops or what forces join ours, I just cared if you were alive somewhere! Hell if it weren't for Neimi I probably would have fucking left to try and track your ass down just to stop from worrying myself to the point of exhaustion."

Sure this probably changed nothing but what did he care if he was losing everything anyway what the fuck did it matter what he said. "I couldn't just hold it together over the past year, im not as strong as I make out to be, putting a front forward for the troops took most of my energy at times just to prevent them from having doubts.."