[Wicked]

Well I was really upset about it and truth be told I'm still upset about it
but dwelling on it doesn't make my paychecks come any sooner so! Being upbeat!
Working on artsy stuffs since I'm off today and gonna listen to music and be happy if it kills me. ><

Good thing is - I talked to Jason about it. He can't help me with the financial aspect of it but he's supporting me emotionally. I had let this fester for DAYS without venting to anyone. Months really, but it only hit me HARD these last few days when I realized she hadn't paid on it for quite awhile.

Couldn't bring it up to Mom because she gets super defensive and/or emotional about it. And for some stupid reason I didn't want to mention it to Jason. I don't know.. I thought he'd be mad or something. Well he's not thrilled and tap dancing obviously but he didn't start an argument with my mom or call me stupid or anything. I had no basis on thinking he would call me stupid except that I feel stupid. So I dunno I figured he'd think I'm stupid? It all seems so silly now.

Anyway. As far as friends? Well. I didn't want to get on facebook and be like "Hey. Let me tell you my problems" and no one really lives close by. Even if - I still wouldn't have wanted to unload on anyone. I've just always been like that. Everyone has their own stuff to worry about so why add my stuff to their load?

This was an extremely long winded way of saying thanks Feyth and Serra.
Because venting a little online was a stepping stone to discussing things with my Husband.

There was also a bit of a shove from above. Thanks Thor. ><
I won't get into all that though. 'sides this post is looooong enough!