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MuseSick · 08:58 PM

I'm not really sure what to do. I've got this friend, and casually I can say we've never met before, because this is Trisphee, and almost everyone on here hasn't met the people on their friends list. So casually speaking, we've never met. We'd originally met through a friend.

But that's not the point MuseSick.

No, the point is that I really don't know what to do, I feel so guilty, because my friend (His name is Chris, I'll call him Chris now), has blocked me and isn't talking to me. That's not the problem. But it's what's leading to me feeling guilty, and me noticing I feel guilty, ALL the time, even though I shouldn't. No matter what I do, even if I did nothing.

So- him and I were talking, now he's basically a hipster and a know it all, he always has to be right, and he thinks he's the most original person ever, he tries so hard to be original. Well, today I mentioned how I want to go back to asking Questions of the day, but I don't think anyone will read them. He brought up how he'd started doing that two years ago on facebook. Yeah no problem, cool. So I told him "Oh really, I've been doing it on my blog since I was 11! ^^ I stopped around last year~ So I've been doing it for about 3 years or so!" and he was like "But I started doing it on facebook" which, I mentioned I'd done it on facebook, blogs, ect, and that I knew lots of people who did it too. Now, he knows that I don't know a lot of people, so based on Ratio, I talk to about 10 people, and 5 of us do it.

He got mad, and claimed I made him feel worthless and like this was his thing, and all he does on facebook and stuff, and now I made it's meaning dissapear. This- pissed me off, but I held that in because I never want him mad at me. I actually have panic attacks, frequently, and the thought of him being mad at me usually sends me into a state of hyperventilating and crying and puking. But recently out friend Alan, the one who introduced us told me to stop being so reserved, and say what I feel, and I'd find out through trial and error what he (Alan) dislikes me saying. So I was almost about to rip Chris a new asshole. But I stopped and told him that he was wrong, and it doesn't make it less valuable, because not everyone asks the same questions. Now he's actually not even currently doing questions of the day, so he took it as EVERYTHING that he posts, is suddenly less meaningful. So he blocked me on MSN, and made a status even about friends, which I saw. I apologized because that's how I am.

But what bother's me the most is that I, feel guilty for him getting mad at me, because not only did he put words in my mouth earlier, but he also took everything I said the wrong way. Why should I feel guilty? I even explained to him what I'd meant, and he still continued to go back to what he'd thought I'd meant.

Discussion:
Why do I always feel guilty?
What makes you feel guilty?
How do you stop feeling guilty?

MuseSick Mercury Poisoning!		Why do I feel guilty?	#1
	I'm not really sure what to do. I've got this friend, and casually I can say we've never met before, because this is Trisphee, and almost everyone on here hasn't met the people on their friends list. So casually speaking, we've never met. We'd originally met through a friend. But that's not the point MuseSick. No, the point is that I really don't know what to do, I feel so guilty, because my friend (His name is Chris, I'll call him Chris now), has blocked me and isn't talking to me. That's not the problem. But it's what's leading to me feeling guilty, and me noticing I feel guilty, ALL the time, even though I shouldn't. No matter what I do, even if I did nothing. So- him and I were talking, now he's basically a hipster and a know it all, he always has to be right, and he thinks he's the most original person ever, he tries so hard to be original. Well, today I mentioned how I want to go back to asking Questions of the day, but I don't think anyone will read them. He brought up how he'd started doing that two years ago on facebook. Yeah no problem, cool. So I told him "Oh really, I've been doing it on my blog since I was 11! ^^ I stopped around last year~ So I've been doing it for about 3 years or so!" and he was like "But I started doing it on facebook" which, I mentioned I'd done it on facebook, blogs, ect, and that I knew lots of people who did it too. Now, he knows that I don't know a lot of people, so based on Ratio, I talk to about 10 people, and 5 of us do it. He got mad, and claimed I made him feel worthless and like this was his thing, and all he does on facebook and stuff, and now I made it's meaning dissapear. This- pissed me off, but I held that in because I never want him mad at me. I actually have panic attacks, frequently, and the thought of him being mad at me usually sends me into a state of hyperventilating and crying and puking. But recently out friend Alan, the one who introduced us told me to stop being so reserved, and say what I feel, and I'd find out through trial and error what he (Alan) dislikes me saying. So I was almost about to rip Chris a new asshole. But I stopped and told him that he was wrong, and it doesn't make it less valuable, because not everyone asks the same questions. Now he's actually not even currently doing questions of the day, so he took it as EVERYTHING that he posts, is suddenly less meaningful. So he blocked me on MSN, and made a status even about friends, which I saw. I apologized because that's how I am. But what bother's me the most is that I, feel guilty for him getting mad at me, because not only did he put words in my mouth earlier, but he also took everything I said the wrong way. Why should I feel guilty? I even explained to him what I'd meant, and he still continued to go back to what he'd thought I'd meant. Discussion: Why do I always feel guilty? What makes you feel guilty? How do you stop feeling guilty? "Everyone else is either asleep or having sex. I've been watching cable television and eating jello." -The Perks of Being a Wallflower Last edited by MuseSick; 10-10-2011 at 08:58 PM.
		Posted 10-10-2011, 08:30 PM