[Glitch]

I told him he didn't have to quit until he finds another job.

And I think I am being this way because I feel so lied to. He called her the second I left the house- I didn't even know about her, and I wouldn't have known about her, and he wouldn't have told me about her - but my roommate overheard the conversation and how he headed off to her house about an hour later. When I came home the next morning he was sleeping in my bed and told me he wasn't going to ever take me back because he needed to "grow a pair." He told me he could never see himself marrying me - and that he's not attracted to me or my personality. He said I should have known by the fact he wasn't putting emotion into it when he told me he loved me.

And from my snooping (which i hate myself for but I couldn't help it v.v) he was flirting with that girl all that day. Then that night when my parents told him he couldn't come home- and his friend bailed on picking him up - he suddenly begged for me back. Like literally - two hours of being homeless he started telling me he made a mistake.

That's why I feel like I can't trust him or his motives. I only set conditions because I don't want to get hurt again - I don't trust him -I don't trust his motives for being with me. I don't believe that he cares about me at all after the things he said.

I want to give him this second chance but I just can't let go of anything, at least not yet. I want to - I really do - and maybe if he was going out ofh is way to make me feel like he really wanted things to work out they might but I haven't seen that yet. I just hate it :(