[Rosekitten]

"If I were blind by it then i would have taken my chance when I had it to strike him down. Before I ran across you I saw him but I wasn't foolish enough to test how much strength I had left." He frowned a little what the hell was he saying he was talking about killing her own sibling, but .. there wasn't any other way he was the cause of this area being attacked he was a threat to this whole area along with any of the other commanders. If he thought that they could be talked out of it he would have tried by now but that seemed as likely as getting a audience with the Light elf king himself.

He laughed slightly as she went back to her talk of having some good. "Probably stupidity as to why I didn't kill you when I first crossed you. Though you amused me and I hadn't had someone put me into a corner for a long while. I guess that's why I let you live. As far as killing you now.. you know very well I couldn't bring myself to do that." He looked away from her, he hated even saying such words. It was a weakness to say he couldn't harm someone she was probably right but so what one grain of good in him wasn't going to make him change his mind on killing her kind.. not when they tried on a daily basis to kill him.

Smirking a bit as she spoke it was a bit funny thinking back on it a few days ago they were at each other blades ready to draw blood if the other made so much as a inch of movement. "Guess I still have the devils luck then. Though that was the closest I've come to dying in a while that's for sure.. heh" He knew very well if she had pushed her dagger in where she had it he wouldn't have lasted too long or at least not long enough to get supplies he'd need to fix it.. and then there was the chance she could have hit any number of organs that would have made the wound fatal.

"Well I guess we're not so different then are we. But this is a war.. that's how your suppose to see your enemy." He shrugged a little before going on "I keep my word, if I can help it anyway.. Even if it has to be to a enemy. At that time i'd rather keep breathing then take a life, I would have said whatever you wanted me to say to prevent that blade from striking." It was a bit eerry he still could feel it in the spot she had pressed it against, it was probably his closest dance with death yet and it was from her.

Whatever the cause that made them not kill one another he was thankful really, he wouldn't have been able to live it down if he found out later he killed the one person he had called a friend as a child. "I wouldn't trust myself saying that crap.. but you had me in a bit of a bind there.. I really wasn't planning to do anything against my word. I was really thinking you had some back up plan that was going to make me regret dropping that blade myself" He smiled weakly at her it wasn't something he was proud of that he had to admit defeat to someone, well in this case it was more of a draw.

His ears went back as she spoke she didn't know but she was about to learn something, the very something that Neimi nearly said to her. "i have a right to not want to be close to anyone" He snapped at her suddenly. "You've always had someone around at least one person to care about you. Even back then when we were kids I had already lost everything I could possibly say I held dear to me."

He stopped after his little outburst and his ears dropped further as he looked away from her. "I've been alone for most of my life I think I'm use to it by now, it's not as hard to accept being alone as you'd think. Not if you don't remember what it was like to have someone anyway." Sure it sounded a little depressing but it was the truth, his parents were killed by the last Light elf king. He never trusted any of his kind cause they hardly helped him as a child he had no fond memories it was almost amazing that he was even nice to Judith as a child. "sorry.." he finally said knowing he had been a bit harsh with her just now and she didn't really do anything wrong aside from questioning him.

He didn't say anything to her for a little bit. He didn't think he had the right to speak to her just yet. Though at least she knew, though he wished it wasn't something that couldn't happen. If the peace talks all those years ago had worked.. where would the two races be now? He needed to stop thinking about that cause peace wasn't something that was ever going to happen it seemed. "you don't have to be sorry. I... I just don't know how to take it is all, I don't keep company so I don't have to deal with such things." He laughed slightly though it was rather weak sounding before he went on. "it's not right to torment someone and taunt them on knowing they won't do anything.. unless you were just trying to see if i'd give in." He half thought she might have been toying with him maybe a plot to kill him or have a excuse to.. no that's not it.