[Rosekitten]

Maybe in another life he could find her again, it hurt knowing she was going to always want him at her side and they couldn't do anything to make that happen. He'd rather take any dagger to he chest then have to deal with this. "shh.. I know.. " He sight softly to her as she was going on. Sure he thought he should have expressed himself sooner to enjoy his time more with her but it would have hurt more in the end if it had come to this. Or worse could have happened.. she could have been branded as a traitor or killed he didn't want any of that for her so things turned out for the best or that's what he tried to tell himself.

He laughed slightly at her words, she was still the same "being your lover is fine by me.. " Though her next words made him feel guilty that he was leaving her but he had to do it right... there was no way he could force his way through a army to get to the queen. 'please don't miss me.. don't say such a thing I'll want to go back on my words' He thought to himself, he wanted to say forget his plan and find another way but there wasn't one that didn't involve him getting killed anyway.

He held the kiss after her last words not wanting to let her go not after all they had been through and now he was going to just give her up. 'Stupid you knew this would happen' He told himself and he did know it, he had tried to hold his feelings to himself knowing he couldn't have her. He moved his hand to her face to brush away a few stray strands of hair that were covering her face before kissing her again and puling her close to him. The heat from her body against his was almost maddening to his mind, he wanted to remember all of this no matter what happened just to have the memories of what times he did have with her would keep him going. He feared otherwise he might try and throw his life away.. but then how would he protect her.