[Rosekitten]

Listening to her talk about how he had been there for her and how she didn't know what she would have done if she never met him. Really if she had never met him he probably wouldn't be here at all. She had given him a reason to bother with life even back then when they first met he had no real will to live. He felt almost bad telling her that he wanted to be with her but that he was giving his life to another. It was hardly fair to either of them but nothing could be done about it. He had to accept the facts as they were.

Really it was far better for her to stay here she had someone willing to take care of her and treat her as she needed to be treated, he doubted he could even do that much though she seemed to tell him he had done plenty for her over the years. But when it came down to it they just couldn't be together not and live any sort of life. If it came to having a family then the parents let alone the child would be shunned from both sides, that wasn't any way to live and he knew it. He kept such thoughts to himself, he didn't want to think about what they couldn't have together.

Hearing her say she understood took a bit off of his mind, at least she did though she didn't seem pleased with it and really he'd rather run himself through with a blade then to deal with it. Well there was a thought maybe he could get some sort of suicide mission after everything settled and ... no he couldn't do that running away from a problem never solved it as far as he knew. "I figured it was better to let you know.. then for you to find out after".

He wasn't going to disrespect her wish for him to stop talking, really he didn't have anything left to say. Well.. there was one thing that he hadn't come right out and said just yet but he had time still before he left her. Though the idle thought was that spending the night with her could get them both in trouble seeing as this was the kings domain, but she didn't seem to care or at least not think about that. Moving one hand to her leg he ran his fingertips lightly against her bare skin, her skin was still just as soft as it ever was. The excitement of all of this was getting to him though he was still managing himself rather well almost hesitant to do anything. All this time he had been holding himself back and now he can do whatever he wanted it seemed... and here he was taking it slowly though he had a reason for this he wanted to remember this even knowing it'd never happen again he wanted it to be etched into his memory.