[Jurinjo]

People have said that your mate is probably not extending any love to you. But you haven't countered with what she does do for you. Is there love returned? Is she showing signs of being withdrawn because I suppose giving her up the last time she feels like something may happen again? They're right at this point you aren't living in a healthy situation. If anything I think a talk needs to happen between you two about your feelings. Take whatever process you need for your thoughts/feelings on it all: how her mother treats you, why she can't support you in front of her mom- that this makes you feel she doesn't love you at all. Essentially "Do I matter to YOU at all?"

What I do though, and it's not a recommendation to or everybody in general because we are all different. Is that when I go through a particular emotion I want to work out then during it I write quickly- scribbling my thoughts and feelings at the moment no matter how jumbled it is and then try coming back to it in a calmer state. Reviewing it more logically. Not to make excused but to try and resolve a solution to the problem. It's an easy way to chicken out. But it is a method that works for me personally.