[Mizeria]

Dear-

I want to write... all of what I'm feeling. I want to scream to the heavens and whisper to hell.... but I'm afraid. Every time I talk to people bad things come of it. Every time I open up...

So I'm here to say;

"I'll miss you always. For you once broke my heart. Yet now you want be back... I know you can't understand why I have forgiven you, or why I love him. I know you don't even know where to begin to try. Yet, I can't live without you in my life. So I hope... you will find away to be friends with me..."

"Mind, body, and soul belong to you. As they always have. It took me to long to realize what you meant to me. I wish I could turn back time and change things. I love you. So trust me when I say no one will take me from you. Ever."


"I'm sorry when we talk I seem to hurt you. I don't ever mean to... I've been unstable so I guess I'm not the best person to turn to. I hope you can forgive me Muse. I'll try to be a better friend to you. I'm sorry for everything."

"I hate you and I don't know why you can't see that. You're my mother.. and you don't even know what you've done wrong. Sending me letters saying 'I miss you and I want to talk. Tell me what I did so I can fix things' IS NOT HELPING YOUR CASE. I've told you before and I won't tell you again. My forgiveness will never be yours. For all you've ever done to me. To dad. You deserve my silence."

"I don't know what you're doing or what you're thinking. I don't know why you're with her. I don't know why we can't talk about this. MH would be sooo much better for you... if you could only open your eyes and see it. I can't talk to you about anything anymore. I don't know what to do. I miss knowing I could always talk to you... because I no longer can. I miss you Dad. I hope things work out.."