[Demo]

Well I'm really insecure about a lot of things...

Mainly sexuality. I am as the world calls it gay.
That however does not mean I wanna be a girl, want to become a girl, like wearing girls clothes, the color pink, talking like a retard, acting like a retard girl, or have anything to do with a girl.
What I'm getting at is that I'm really afraid to tell anyone that I am a homosexual because that's what comes to their damned minds and I hate it. I just want to be a normal guy but it seems society and every little high school boy believes that when you are gay you have to act a certain way that being gay has been perceived.

However I am not a friggin overly dominant creep show.
I get insanely offended and pissed when my friends make the occasional joke of being gay, or going shopping, or being a gay best friend. I don't wanna go shopping with you, I don't wanna talk about boys, and no I don't wanna wear your damn clothes. I've said this to my girl friends but they seem to take it jokingly.

I mean I just ugh am pissed at this, I just don't like it.
Being gay is not the best thing here in Delaware because the gay population is small and is mostly the stereotype guys that I mentioned. Everyone one of them makes me want to punch the living daylights out of em constantly. -.-

But besides that I just I dunno really am in a weird place in my life at the moment...
The only relationship I have ever had is probably the worst thing I've experienced yet. I won't go into details but I was taken advantage of and yes that piece of shit fits the bill mostly of the stereotypical gay.

I have no clue why the hell I'm posting this but I am. I just feel like this would be the place to do it.