[MuseSick]

I tried getting a job this summer..
But the only place that would hire at 15 is my Mum's work, and I didn't want to work there.. I know I should have standards.. I could have had a couple of grand by now..
But.. I couldn't stand being in her building with her..
So- I have to wait till I'm 16..
And I don't have very good friends..
I mean I've got one..
But sometimes.. I can't stand to be in the same room as her..
Because she's betrayed me before..
and this is back when I was too forgiving..
and junk.
So we've been friends.. for nearly 6 years now?
But yeah..
I wouldn't live with her..
I'm scared to death to even talk to her about it..
I always feel like I'm boring someone..
When I talk about myself, or my home life..
With the mixture of my Mum telling me to keep my feelings to myself, write them in a book, something, as long as I tell no one, ever..
It's hard..