[MuseSick]

Haha- funny thing is. My friend likes to tell me I have a "Just been kicked" look. Because I have a tenancy of looking sad... That or Asian. But that's not the point. Thank you though..

@ Nerria. I know.. Exactly how you feel..I think it could be because I'm overly sensitive though.
My Dad- he's the type of person where, when he introduces me to people who may not remember who I am, he tells them I'm the youngest one, the one who could have played ball like his sister. Or that I want to be a goth. THAT'S what he tells people. He tells them I could have been just as good as my sister is, when I played, if my sister and I played in the same league I would have been better than her. He tells people I'm lazy, and that's why I don't want to play, because I don't weight 120 pounds like my older sister does.

I hated the sport. I wont even go watch my sister play, not that she deserves it. Because I can't STAND when he sits there and tells people I'm basically a loser who threw away everything I could have been good at. I can't call him out on it because he's always right, no matter WHAT. Hell- One day he said I was wrong and my favorite colour was orange. Like FUCK it's MY favorite colour. But he constantly acts like I'm such a disappointment.
But he doesn't even KNOW what I'm capable of because he never comes to my recitals.. Hell.. He does so many things... And that's just one of them.. And he does that at LEAST 1 every 2 days.. At least..
And it makes me feel like shit- Like being a musician and a write would never be enough. Like playing baseball is some godly thing, and he tells me stupid shit like "Have fun paying for school" and "you could have had that too"
But he never stops to realize.. It's not what I want.. It never was.. -sighs- Sorry.. Long rant here..

Edit: completely fine. I honest to god.. Don't even know if I want a yearly, or which one I want~