[gremlin]

My mother's entire family is pretty fucked up.
They're all on well-fare and take advantage of people.
My mother herself, is unstable mentally and emotionally. She always thinks that she's right, it can be over the most ridiculous thing and she's 'right'.
She will constantly yell at me and make me feel like a useless piece of shit. Whenever I try to talk to her, ask her how she's doing, she seems uninterested in a conversation. I try to interact with her, it drives me insane.
Her mother treated her like shit, so she's treating me like shit. I honestly think that that's why she seems to favourite my brothers so much and resents me. Her mother did that, she was also the only girl.
I'll be sobbing and she will roll her eyes and tell me to get over myself.

The other week, she was searching for something, called me through and asked "where did you put the baggy with Mila's fur in it?" Mila = our recently put down dog who we all loved. I must have accidentally thrown it out. But that isn't MY fucking fault. Who leaves such an important thing just laying around, unmarked and shit? My boyfriend was over, she started yelling at me. I had to take a seat because I felt as if I was going to throw up. I started to hysterically sob and my boyfriend went to come through, but backed away when he saw my mom screaming at me. When she left, he came up to me and assured me that it wasn't my fault. But... the way she talked to me. No one should be talked to like that. As if they're not worth anything.
And now it's like she has gotten worse. Since that happened. She did come up to me and said that she was sorry and that she loved me. But now it's like... she gets angrier at me. It's like a fed her a reason to hate her, even though it's not my fault that she left it in there, how the fuck would I know what it was?